Type A/C post
Wow, about the same exact time last year I was uploading my End-of-Year A-Log, didn't make it in time for the New York New Year, but uploaded it soon after.
This year, the same damn thing. :D
Download and listen to my 40+ minute A-Log. Unlike last year where I did it in multiple parts, Audacity let me do it straight. ^o^
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Happy New Year to everyone at New York and the East Coast!
I promised to do this in the hard-as-fuck-to-hear A-Log (sorry about that - hehe ^^;;), so here ya go.
Self-extracting .cab file (Cabinet file) of last year's EOY A-Log.
My very first A-Log ever.
Second-ever A-Log (or maybe third-ever, I forgot), discussing X-Mas presents I eventually failed to make.
Third-ever A-Log (or second-ever, again I forgot), in which I realized just how limiting doing A-Logs in Sound Recorder really was.
BTW, I should mention about my 2007 EOY A-Log. It's hard to hear 'cause of my damn computer fan (fucking hell), and for some odd reason it cuts out the last couple of seconds (I should've said "Sig Nuka, signing off", like in last year's A-Logs). Maybe next time instead of using Audacity to convert it to mp3, I should use iTunes like I always usually do (this year's A-Log took up too much space).
Oh, and I re-uploaded all of the VH Nox songs (except Connery Submersible since I need to fix the ID3 tag on that), which I'll post on my next post tomorrow. Apparently Hotlink Files erased all of my files (sons 'a bitches). >:(
Next year will be good. Well, hopefully at least (I'm betting on that late-May-to-mid-July significant-as-hell moment that's been happening every year since three years ago).
Happy New Year to everyone, and hopefully you all are not too drunk tomorrow morning (all one of you that ever reads this). :D
- siggy
P.S.: Well well, these aren't direct-link files apparently. Fucking hell, now what? >:( Oh well, it'll have to do for now. -_-
P.P.S.: Also, it'll probably be 2008 before anyone reads this, so hopefully the hangover from last night (if you had one) wasn't too bad. If no hangover, then hopefully you didn't party too hard and now have a throbbing headache. ^^;;
Monday, December 31, 2007
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
T'was a swarm of beauty it was
Type C post.
Wrote this last night, just remembered to post it. :V
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Late Night Invasion
I listen to the complex melody, the type of which I seem to be particularly fond of. The song itself may not be a favorite of mine, but it is enjoyable nonetheless. I sit here, late at night, much later than what my parental figures would approve of. I type these words, pondering something I had seen a few moments ago and have tried desperately to "unsee", as the denizens of the self-proclaimed "ocean of piss" of the internet say.
I have tried to "unsee" a rather peculiar image, peculiar in a sense that it was one of very few images I had ever seen that affected me in such a way that prevented me from functioning correctly the moment I saw it. Most images of that sort usually are of a particularly grotesque nature, but not this. This image was unique, in that it was the exact opposite: extraordinarily beautiful. Now, I have seen my fair share of images that showed a beauty rarely seen, but this image radiated. In fact, the aura surrounding the image was too much for me after about a minute, so after desparately trying to recover from seeing such an intense image (and failing miserably) I somehow decided to immediately leave the page containing said image in order to save myself a bit of sanity.
Luckily, I had already taken measures a while ago to forget the image. And while I have somewhat succeeded in forgetting the details, the memory of that radiating aura remains firmly in my mind.
During this typing, I for some reason repeated the playlist of songs I was listening to. It is late, and if the sleeping guard wakes up it will be the end of me (again). But the music is enjoyable, and I cannot seem to finish this. Furthermore, my mind still obsesses over the aforementioned predicament I have somehow put myself into.
If I had some sort of confidante that I could tell all without fear, I would've just told that person my situation instead of pretending to be some sort of Jules Verne or Mark Twain or Dan Brown (oh how culture affects us) or someone similar in typing these words. Sadly, I am a being of great fear and little trust, and it is a frame of mind that is nearly impossible to break without in-person confrontation. So I end these words originally meant to be some sort of non-personal story, and I leave you pondering the madness I have typed for you to see.
Whilst I hurry to escape to my bed before the guard awakens (my father for those of you who need clarification).
Sigmund X
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Haven't done any written Type C stuff in a while. Comment please. ^_^
Oh, and I know this is a Type C post but I gotta mention this: BEATMANIA IIDX 15 DJ TROOPERS IS OUT!! More info either tomorrow or later this week. ^o^
- siggy
Wrote this last night, just remembered to post it. :V
_______________________
Late Night Invasion
I listen to the complex melody, the type of which I seem to be particularly fond of. The song itself may not be a favorite of mine, but it is enjoyable nonetheless. I sit here, late at night, much later than what my parental figures would approve of. I type these words, pondering something I had seen a few moments ago and have tried desperately to "unsee", as the denizens of the self-proclaimed "ocean of piss" of the internet say.
I have tried to "unsee" a rather peculiar image, peculiar in a sense that it was one of very few images I had ever seen that affected me in such a way that prevented me from functioning correctly the moment I saw it. Most images of that sort usually are of a particularly grotesque nature, but not this. This image was unique, in that it was the exact opposite: extraordinarily beautiful. Now, I have seen my fair share of images that showed a beauty rarely seen, but this image radiated. In fact, the aura surrounding the image was too much for me after about a minute, so after desparately trying to recover from seeing such an intense image (and failing miserably) I somehow decided to immediately leave the page containing said image in order to save myself a bit of sanity.
Luckily, I had already taken measures a while ago to forget the image. And while I have somewhat succeeded in forgetting the details, the memory of that radiating aura remains firmly in my mind.
During this typing, I for some reason repeated the playlist of songs I was listening to. It is late, and if the sleeping guard wakes up it will be the end of me (again). But the music is enjoyable, and I cannot seem to finish this. Furthermore, my mind still obsesses over the aforementioned predicament I have somehow put myself into.
If I had some sort of confidante that I could tell all without fear, I would've just told that person my situation instead of pretending to be some sort of Jules Verne or Mark Twain or Dan Brown (oh how culture affects us) or someone similar in typing these words. Sadly, I am a being of great fear and little trust, and it is a frame of mind that is nearly impossible to break without in-person confrontation. So I end these words originally meant to be some sort of non-personal story, and I leave you pondering the madness I have typed for you to see.
Whilst I hurry to escape to my bed before the guard awakens (my father for those of you who need clarification).
Sigmund X
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Haven't done any written Type C stuff in a while. Comment please. ^_^
Oh, and I know this is a Type C post but I gotta mention this: BEATMANIA IIDX 15 DJ TROOPERS IS OUT!! More info either tomorrow or later this week. ^o^
- siggy
It's not a beam, nor is it sexy
Type D post.
I updated my X-Mas Wishlist / "Anime I'm Planning On Buying" List with my new thoughts on Blood: The Last Vampire (disappointing and too short, felt like a lost episode not a whole fucking movie) and a movie I just saw called Dead Leaves (kinda mindless, but fun as hell to watch), which had a character that reminded me of a little something known throughout the Touhou community as the Sexy Beam (originating from a Touhou doujinshi). For a little bit of info on the Sexy Beam, look at the title of this post.
- siggy
I updated my X-Mas Wishlist / "Anime I'm Planning On Buying" List with my new thoughts on Blood: The Last Vampire (disappointing and too short, felt like a lost episode not a whole fucking movie) and a movie I just saw called Dead Leaves (kinda mindless, but fun as hell to watch), which had a character that reminded me of a little something known throughout the Touhou community as the Sexy Beam (originating from a Touhou doujinshi). For a little bit of info on the Sexy Beam, look at the title of this post.
- siggy
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Want to, but afraid to
Type B/E post.
Honestly, the only reason I'm actually posting this is because of the fact that the person in question doesn't read this. Maybe one day (or year) I'll refer this person to this post, but for now this is pretty much being posted in secret (hopefully).
I was looking around the internet and found these two blog posts.
This is what I want to do so badly.
This is why I'm so afraid to do it.
And on a related note, I found something quite some time ago that I really liked. The site is called One Sentence, and it's basically an archive of stories told in one sentence.
This one is my favorite one, for reasons I can't disclose in fear of being discovered.
For those of you paying close attention, now you know why I want to see 5 Centimeters Per Second so badly. :)
My only hope is that I don't run the risk of ruining my life by making this post. All I really want is for people to be happy. I'd try to make people happy myself, but my attempts are so horrible that I just wish I had a method of transportation (to hug them on the spot) and a way to kill my extreme shyness (I say nothing for fear of offending someone or for fear of sounding like as total dumbass or a total dick or just plain nosy).
*sigh* It's been years since I've had real emotional support, but no one reads this so it's not like I'm gonna receive it anytime soon. I only wish though...
- siggy
Honestly, the only reason I'm actually posting this is because of the fact that the person in question doesn't read this. Maybe one day (or year) I'll refer this person to this post, but for now this is pretty much being posted in secret (hopefully).
I was looking around the internet and found these two blog posts.
This is what I want to do so badly.
This is why I'm so afraid to do it.
And on a related note, I found something quite some time ago that I really liked. The site is called One Sentence, and it's basically an archive of stories told in one sentence.
This one is my favorite one, for reasons I can't disclose in fear of being discovered.
For those of you paying close attention, now you know why I want to see 5 Centimeters Per Second so badly. :)
My only hope is that I don't run the risk of ruining my life by making this post. All I really want is for people to be happy. I'd try to make people happy myself, but my attempts are so horrible that I just wish I had a method of transportation (to hug them on the spot) and a way to kill my extreme shyness (I say nothing for fear of offending someone or for fear of sounding like as total dumbass or a total dick or just plain nosy).
*sigh* It's been years since I've had real emotional support, but no one reads this so it's not like I'm gonna receive it anytime soon. I only wish though...
- siggy
Official X-Mas Wishlist For The Tragically Uninformed
I'm gonna update this with a post type later - I honestly don't know what it is right now (A? A/E? E? something else?).
X-Mas is coming (forgot the correct spelling of the full word - shut up), and that means that I'm gonna have to post a wish list for people to refer to in case they don't know what to give me for X-Mas (and they don't apparently). So here ya go.
Anime
Cheapness: 3/5 to 4/5 (depends on series and whether or not it's a box set)
Expected Excitement: 4/5 (average, but again depends on series)
Findability: 2/5 to 5/5 (REALLY depends on series)
Easiest and most likely to make me happy, but finding the more obscure series without using the internet will leave you with a helluva headache.
Individual Series / Movies / OVAs / etc.
5 Centimeters Per Second
Interest Rating: 6/5 (Will purchase on sight, X-Mas or not)
Official trailer for the movie is right here. I don't even know if I SHOULD put this on the list, as I'm gonna buy it the very first time I see it. Sadly, I dunno when this comes out. T_T
Edit: I just remembered something: I'm planning on buying the 3-disc Collector's Edition if I can find it, solely for the soundtrack. Honestly, it's fucking Tenmon (I have an album of his on my iPod, and holy FUCK it's good).
Akira
Interest Rating: 3.5/5
I'm VERY curious on how this movie is, so I want to buy it in order to see if it really IS that good (it might, it might not). Rating bumped half a point based on curiosity alone.
Azumanga Daioh
Interest Rating: 5/5
Was planning on buying the thinpak collection LAST X-Mas, but I haven't seen it since around this time last year. Honestly, I'm gonna fucking find this one day, and when I do I'm gonna buy it on-sight (unless I'm forced to choose between this and 5cm of course).
Blood: The Last Vampire
Interest Rating: 1.5/5
Since I happen to like Blood+ (despite only being able to see a handful of episodes), I'm curious on the how original movie is like. I actually learned while typing this that SciFi will show this movie next monday, so if I like it or hate it I'm gonna adjust the interest rating accordingly.
Edit: Ugh, no. It was interesting, but I didn't really like it. And I didn't realize it until it ended that it was SHORT as FUCK. Wikipedia has it as 48 minutes. 48 minutes? Screw you, that's a long episode, not a movie (it did feel like some long-lost episode instead of a full movie). And after seeing Blood+, I especially didn't like Saya: not her dub voice (horrible) or her visually (equally bad). Maybe after watching Blood+ I was expecting something along those lines. How wrong I was. Changed the 3/5 rating to a 1.5/5 (half an extra point out of pity).
Dead Leaves
Interest Rating: 4.5/5
Saw this after Blood: The Last Vampire's unexpected short ending. DID NOT KNOW what to expect, but HOLY HELL was it fun to watch. Now I'm usually a plot person, but with this movie's blazingly fast pace and sheer awesomeness I stopped caring about the plot and just had FUN. It may run just under an hour (55 minutes says Wikipedia), but unlike Blood: The Last Vampire it actually feels like a movie. Also, any movie that can remind me of the Sexy Beam (infamous Touhou doujinshi reference) automatically WINS (hence the extra half-point).
Dragon Ball Z
Interest Rating: 3/5
I already have the first season box set, and the rest are at Best Buy, so while I AM planning on buying the rest eventually, it's not exactly a priority.
Macross Plus
Interest Rating: 4/5
Now, there's a movie version and an OVA. I want the OVA. Now, I'm NOT a mecha fan AT ALL, but for some odd reason I liked this. Maybe it's because the "mecha" are fighter jets for most of the series (or at least that's what I saw, I dunno). Also, Voices happens to be one of only a handful of anime themes I've ever loved (I have it on my iPod dammit). It's a bitch to find though, although that's probably because I live in Twin Falls (honestly, I think Twin is prejudiced against the otaku community).
Naruto
Interest Rating: 3/5
Like DBZ, I both have the first box set and have seen the rest at Best Buy. Again, this series isn't a priority right now.
Negima!: Magister Negi Magi
Interest Rating: 3.5/5
Unlike other 3.5 ratings here, this is actually DOCKED a WHOLE point (the 4.5 is from that curiosity half-point again). Reason is, I want to read a few more volumes of the manga before seeing this (or thanks to Livevideo, which is a higher-quality version of YouTube, the REST of this). Good series, even if it ISN'T a faithful retelling by any means (although in a couple of instances I actually prefered the anime version). I've seen individual DVDs at Best Buy, but I'm pretty sure there's a Complete Collection out there somewhere (which is prefered).
Neon Genesis Evangelion
Interest Rating: 3.5/5
Docked two points because I have heard HORRIBLE things about the plot, character treatment and ending (all of which I care about the most in anime OR manga), but bumped back up half a point from the sheer curiosity. I saw the complete collection at Best Buy recently, but it's EXPENSIVE (over 80 bucks, almost 90?? fuuuuck). Still, I don't think most people call this the greatest anime of all time for nothing you know, so maybe in a few days (or weeks) I'll bump the rating up another half-point.
Project A-ko
Interest Rating: 4/5
For some odd reason, I actually have the first Project A-ko movie and the Grey Side/Blue Side spinoff RECORDED FROM THE SCIFI CHANNEL "SATURDAY MORNING ANIME" BLOCK FROM THE EARLY 90s. Bitches. But I REALLY want the DVD versions, and apparently there's a complete collection out there (specifically the "enhanced" version that I want). I actually docked this a point because, well, I heard the other three movies weren't really that good (although I remember seeing the second movie and found it to be at least entertaining). But it's fucking Project A-ko for damn sakes, so don't hesitate. ;)
Tenchi Universe
Interest Rating: 4/5
Best Buy actually has the complete collection, although I'm waiting on 5cm's release before I purchase it. I already have Tenchi Muyo, and Tenchi in Universe is logically next, but I'm not buying Tenchi in Tokyo since it really wasn't that good IMO.
[Sig Note: I'd include Noein here, but I recently discovered that they're releasing the complete collection late January of next year, so I'll wait for that. Also, I'd include IGPX here as well, but I'm hoping for a complete collection someday (although there ARE the two season box sets that are out - I dunno, really; it's your decision). And if you're wondering, IGPX is around a 5/5 interest rating for me. Finally, I'd put Cowboy Bebop here, but again I'm waiting for a complete collection release to pop up somewhere.]
Manga
Cheapness: 5/5 (individually), 4/5 (multiple, rating goes down further with the more you buy)
Expected Excitement: 2/5 to 5/5 (depending on rarity of books and number of books received)
Findability: 1/5 to 3/5 (good luck on finding the obscure ones without the internet)
Look at my Manga Wish List on the right for more info and for level of obscurity / want (the harder it is to find, the more I probably want it, especially Tsukihime and Tenchi Muyo, although Welcome to the N.H.K. is a fucking must-have) - and use Wikipedia to find out how many volumes are out for each series (you don't have to stop on just one volume if you don't have to - hehe).
Other
iPod Classic (80GB, black)
Cheapness: 1/5 (it's a fucking iPod)
Expected Excitement: 5/5 (it's a fucking iPod)
Findability: 5/5 (it's a fucking iPod)
I need the fucking space. Hell, I bet I can fill half of it right now. I know I already have a first-gen nano, but I'm planning on using both (one as a "favorite pack" iPod, one as a "I want to listen to something different" iPod).
Digital camera
Cheapness: 1/5 to 2/5 (depending on price)
Expected Excitement: 5/5 (I've been wanting a digital camera FOREVER)
Findability: 5/5 (maybe 4/5 if you're picky enough)
I've seen way too many "Kodak moments" to NOT want a camera. For fuck's sake somebody: GIVE ME A FUCKING CAMERA! AUGH!
Big long badass trenchcoat (preferably with an inside pocket)
Cheapness: 4/5 (possibly 3/5 since I've never actually SEEN a trenchcoat on sale before)
Expected Excitement: 6/5 (it's a motherfucking trenchcoat)
Findability: 2/5 to 4/5 (range is a guess, since I dunno how common trenchcoats with inside pockets are)
It's a fucking trenchcoat. What more do I need to say? IT'S A FUCKING TRENCHCOAT. BUY IT MOTHERFUCKER.
Gloves (preferably a pair I can wear indoors as well as outdoors)
Cheapness: 5/5 (maybe 4/5 if you try hard enough)
Expected Excitement: 3/5 (but if you're EXTREMELY lucky and find a kickass pair, 5/5)
Findability: 3/5 to 5/5 (depending on what you've got in mind when I say "indoor gloves", 1/5 for that aforementioned kickass pair, but could go up relative to your luck)
Sometimes (like now for example) my hands get fucking cold indoors, so I need gloves that don't hamper on my internet surfing time / typing time too much, but succeed in keeping my hands warm outdoors as well. And if you're very lucky and find an awesome pair that matches my trenchcoat in badassness (without losing functionality), then I'll probably hug you on the spot. Probably. >_>
Well, I think that's my list (that I remember right now). Choose whatever you want from the list, and start shopping. Tell other people you know that know me about this list, and hopefully this year I can have a "Merry Little X-Mas" (I'm thinking about the song right now - shut up). ^o^
- siggy
X-Mas is coming (forgot the correct spelling of the full word - shut up), and that means that I'm gonna have to post a wish list for people to refer to in case they don't know what to give me for X-Mas (and they don't apparently). So here ya go.
Anime
Cheapness: 3/5 to 4/5 (depends on series and whether or not it's a box set)
Expected Excitement: 4/5 (average, but again depends on series)
Findability: 2/5 to 5/5 (REALLY depends on series)
Easiest and most likely to make me happy, but finding the more obscure series without using the internet will leave you with a helluva headache.
Individual Series / Movies / OVAs / etc.
5 Centimeters Per Second
Interest Rating: 6/5 (Will purchase on sight, X-Mas or not)
Official trailer for the movie is right here. I don't even know if I SHOULD put this on the list, as I'm gonna buy it the very first time I see it. Sadly, I dunno when this comes out. T_T
Edit: I just remembered something: I'm planning on buying the 3-disc Collector's Edition if I can find it, solely for the soundtrack. Honestly, it's fucking Tenmon (I have an album of his on my iPod, and holy FUCK it's good).
Akira
Interest Rating: 3.5/5
I'm VERY curious on how this movie is, so I want to buy it in order to see if it really IS that good (it might, it might not). Rating bumped half a point based on curiosity alone.
Azumanga Daioh
Interest Rating: 5/5
Was planning on buying the thinpak collection LAST X-Mas, but I haven't seen it since around this time last year. Honestly, I'm gonna fucking find this one day, and when I do I'm gonna buy it on-sight (unless I'm forced to choose between this and 5cm of course).
Blood: The Last Vampire
Interest Rating: 1.5/5
Since I happen to like Blood+ (despite only being able to see a handful of episodes), I'm curious on the how original movie is like. I actually learned while typing this that SciFi will show this movie next monday, so if I like it or hate it I'm gonna adjust the interest rating accordingly.
Edit: Ugh, no. It was interesting, but I didn't really like it. And I didn't realize it until it ended that it was SHORT as FUCK. Wikipedia has it as 48 minutes. 48 minutes? Screw you, that's a long episode, not a movie (it did feel like some long-lost episode instead of a full movie). And after seeing Blood+, I especially didn't like Saya: not her dub voice (horrible) or her visually (equally bad). Maybe after watching Blood+ I was expecting something along those lines. How wrong I was. Changed the 3/5 rating to a 1.5/5 (half an extra point out of pity).
Dead Leaves
Interest Rating: 4.5/5
Saw this after Blood: The Last Vampire's unexpected short ending. DID NOT KNOW what to expect, but HOLY HELL was it fun to watch. Now I'm usually a plot person, but with this movie's blazingly fast pace and sheer awesomeness I stopped caring about the plot and just had FUN. It may run just under an hour (55 minutes says Wikipedia), but unlike Blood: The Last Vampire it actually feels like a movie. Also, any movie that can remind me of the Sexy Beam (infamous Touhou doujinshi reference) automatically WINS (hence the extra half-point).
Dragon Ball Z
Interest Rating: 3/5
I already have the first season box set, and the rest are at Best Buy, so while I AM planning on buying the rest eventually, it's not exactly a priority.
Macross Plus
Interest Rating: 4/5
Now, there's a movie version and an OVA. I want the OVA. Now, I'm NOT a mecha fan AT ALL, but for some odd reason I liked this. Maybe it's because the "mecha" are fighter jets for most of the series (or at least that's what I saw, I dunno). Also, Voices happens to be one of only a handful of anime themes I've ever loved (I have it on my iPod dammit). It's a bitch to find though, although that's probably because I live in Twin Falls (honestly, I think Twin is prejudiced against the otaku community).
Naruto
Interest Rating: 3/5
Like DBZ, I both have the first box set and have seen the rest at Best Buy. Again, this series isn't a priority right now.
Negima!: Magister Negi Magi
Interest Rating: 3.5/5
Unlike other 3.5 ratings here, this is actually DOCKED a WHOLE point (the 4.5 is from that curiosity half-point again). Reason is, I want to read a few more volumes of the manga before seeing this (or thanks to Livevideo, which is a higher-quality version of YouTube, the REST of this). Good series, even if it ISN'T a faithful retelling by any means (although in a couple of instances I actually prefered the anime version). I've seen individual DVDs at Best Buy, but I'm pretty sure there's a Complete Collection out there somewhere (which is prefered).
Neon Genesis Evangelion
Interest Rating: 3.5/5
Docked two points because I have heard HORRIBLE things about the plot, character treatment and ending (all of which I care about the most in anime OR manga), but bumped back up half a point from the sheer curiosity. I saw the complete collection at Best Buy recently, but it's EXPENSIVE (over 80 bucks, almost 90?? fuuuuck). Still, I don't think most people call this the greatest anime of all time for nothing you know, so maybe in a few days (or weeks) I'll bump the rating up another half-point.
Project A-ko
Interest Rating: 4/5
For some odd reason, I actually have the first Project A-ko movie and the Grey Side/Blue Side spinoff RECORDED FROM THE SCIFI CHANNEL "SATURDAY MORNING ANIME" BLOCK FROM THE EARLY 90s. Bitches. But I REALLY want the DVD versions, and apparently there's a complete collection out there (specifically the "enhanced" version that I want). I actually docked this a point because, well, I heard the other three movies weren't really that good (although I remember seeing the second movie and found it to be at least entertaining). But it's fucking Project A-ko for damn sakes, so don't hesitate. ;)
Tenchi Universe
Interest Rating: 4/5
Best Buy actually has the complete collection, although I'm waiting on 5cm's release before I purchase it. I already have Tenchi Muyo, and Tenchi in Universe is logically next, but I'm not buying Tenchi in Tokyo since it really wasn't that good IMO.
[Sig Note: I'd include Noein here, but I recently discovered that they're releasing the complete collection late January of next year, so I'll wait for that. Also, I'd include IGPX here as well, but I'm hoping for a complete collection someday (although there ARE the two season box sets that are out - I dunno, really; it's your decision). And if you're wondering, IGPX is around a 5/5 interest rating for me. Finally, I'd put Cowboy Bebop here, but again I'm waiting for a complete collection release to pop up somewhere.]
Manga
Cheapness: 5/5 (individually), 4/5 (multiple, rating goes down further with the more you buy)
Expected Excitement: 2/5 to 5/5 (depending on rarity of books and number of books received)
Findability: 1/5 to 3/5 (good luck on finding the obscure ones without the internet)
Look at my Manga Wish List on the right for more info and for level of obscurity / want (the harder it is to find, the more I probably want it, especially Tsukihime and Tenchi Muyo, although Welcome to the N.H.K. is a fucking must-have) - and use Wikipedia to find out how many volumes are out for each series (you don't have to stop on just one volume if you don't have to - hehe).
Other
iPod Classic (80GB, black)
Cheapness: 1/5 (it's a fucking iPod)
Expected Excitement: 5/5 (it's a fucking iPod)
Findability: 5/5 (it's a fucking iPod)
I need the fucking space. Hell, I bet I can fill half of it right now. I know I already have a first-gen nano, but I'm planning on using both (one as a "favorite pack" iPod, one as a "I want to listen to something different" iPod).
Digital camera
Cheapness: 1/5 to 2/5 (depending on price)
Expected Excitement: 5/5 (I've been wanting a digital camera FOREVER)
Findability: 5/5 (maybe 4/5 if you're picky enough)
I've seen way too many "Kodak moments" to NOT want a camera. For fuck's sake somebody: GIVE ME A FUCKING CAMERA! AUGH!
Big long badass trenchcoat (preferably with an inside pocket)
Cheapness: 4/5 (possibly 3/5 since I've never actually SEEN a trenchcoat on sale before)
Expected Excitement: 6/5 (it's a motherfucking trenchcoat)
Findability: 2/5 to 4/5 (range is a guess, since I dunno how common trenchcoats with inside pockets are)
It's a fucking trenchcoat. What more do I need to say? IT'S A FUCKING TRENCHCOAT. BUY IT MOTHERFUCKER.
Gloves (preferably a pair I can wear indoors as well as outdoors)
Cheapness: 5/5 (maybe 4/5 if you try hard enough)
Expected Excitement: 3/5 (but if you're EXTREMELY lucky and find a kickass pair, 5/5)
Findability: 3/5 to 5/5 (depending on what you've got in mind when I say "indoor gloves", 1/5 for that aforementioned kickass pair, but could go up relative to your luck)
Sometimes (like now for example) my hands get fucking cold indoors, so I need gloves that don't hamper on my internet surfing time / typing time too much, but succeed in keeping my hands warm outdoors as well. And if you're very lucky and find an awesome pair that matches my trenchcoat in badassness (without losing functionality), then I'll probably hug you on the spot. Probably. >_>
Well, I think that's my list (that I remember right now). Choose whatever you want from the list, and start shopping. Tell other people you know that know me about this list, and hopefully this year I can have a "Merry Little X-Mas" (I'm thinking about the song right now - shut up). ^o^
- siggy
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
And now we return to your regular page size
Type E post.
I'm making this post in order to bump my uber-post off of the page, thereby halving my page length. ^o^
Yes, it's gonna feel GOOD to have normal scrolling now. :P
- siggy
Edit: Okay, SEMI-normal scrolling - forgot how long that one post was. ^^;; Honestly, they need to have linkable results for that personality test 'cause that report's LONG.
I'm making this post in order to bump my uber-post off of the page, thereby halving my page length. ^o^
Yes, it's gonna feel GOOD to have normal scrolling now. :P
- siggy
Edit: Okay, SEMI-normal scrolling - forgot how long that one post was. ^^;; Honestly, they need to have linkable results for that personality test 'cause that report's LONG.
Even more bitching, even more whining
Type B/D post.
This post is an update of this post, which listed my reasons of not attempting (or even thinking) about suicide. Specifically, I'm gonna review my reasons and see if they're still true, and to what extent.
"1 - I'm way too lazy to even start planning a successful attempt, much less actually carrying it out."
Right now, yes. Wait until I fulfill Reason #4, then all I would need is a very crappy mood and I could very easily take this reason out.
"2 - I'm too much of a wuss to actually do it. (I haven't even started the 'self injury with blunt objects' thing that I promised myself about a month ago that I'd start)"
Again, given the right mood, I could take this reason out as well.
"3 - I don't want to get in trouble again like I did back in seventh grade."
This one's tougher to take out. If anybody in my family were to see this post (very highly unlikely, but never say never), I might get in trouble anyway. Now, can you imagine how much trouble I'd be in if I started considering suicide? I wouldn't see the end if it. ;_; If I get insane enough and depressed enough though, I might not care (but I'd have to wait until I can fulfill Reason #4 before I attempt anything).
"4 - There's still a few people that I want to see personally first before I make a decision on whether or not I'd actually do it."
And here's the real reason why. Specifically, there's three people in total that were on the list at one time or another. Current status?
Person#1 - Gave up on when I found out that no one had heard from this person in months.
Person#2 - Gave up on thanks to a sudden circumstance beyond our control. I've never personally met this person before, but now I may never get to meet this person (moreso since this person doesn't even live in the US). Fucking shame, too. :(
Person#3 - Still have hope for. If things go as planned, I might see this person next year during a trip to Twin. Worst-case scenario, another sudden circumstance will happen that'll cancel the trip.
Basically, I'm pretty damn sure that by August of next year (at latest) I can safely eliminate Reason #4 from the list, and after that the only real thing that would be stopping me from attempting anything is mood. So in a sense, if I don't see some kind of professional help by August of next year, I could be an EXTREMELY volatile individual, MUCH much more than I am now. Yes, you read that right: worst-case scenario, you could start seeing Type F posts by summer of next year, which would basically be "uber Type B" posts. In short:
"Type F: I'm having a mental Armageddon - IF YOU SEE A POST OF THIS TYPE, CALL 911 NOW, AS I AM PROBABLY SUICIDAL AT THIS POINT"
But you won't see Type F on my "Types of Posts" list anytime soon - which means that I don't plan on having suicidal thoughts anytime soon. Now you've been updated on why. ^_^
So don't fret: I'll STILL be alive in the coming months. Well, hopefully at least (especially now with my occasional bouts of batshit insanity - ugh).
- siggy
[Sig Note: Opera SUCKS for typing blogs (or anything for that matter) in-browser, so I typed this on Notepad - complete with HTML and stuff. Take THAT, Opera! Nyeh.]
This post is an update of this post, which listed my reasons of not attempting (or even thinking) about suicide. Specifically, I'm gonna review my reasons and see if they're still true, and to what extent.
"1 - I'm way too lazy to even start planning a successful attempt, much less actually carrying it out."
Right now, yes. Wait until I fulfill Reason #4, then all I would need is a very crappy mood and I could very easily take this reason out.
"2 - I'm too much of a wuss to actually do it. (I haven't even started the 'self injury with blunt objects' thing that I promised myself about a month ago that I'd start)"
Again, given the right mood, I could take this reason out as well.
"3 - I don't want to get in trouble again like I did back in seventh grade."
This one's tougher to take out. If anybody in my family were to see this post (very highly unlikely, but never say never), I might get in trouble anyway. Now, can you imagine how much trouble I'd be in if I started considering suicide? I wouldn't see the end if it. ;_; If I get insane enough and depressed enough though, I might not care (but I'd have to wait until I can fulfill Reason #4 before I attempt anything).
"4 - There's still a few people that I want to see personally first before I make a decision on whether or not I'd actually do it."
And here's the real reason why. Specifically, there's three people in total that were on the list at one time or another. Current status?
Person#1 - Gave up on when I found out that no one had heard from this person in months.
Person#2 - Gave up on thanks to a sudden circumstance beyond our control. I've never personally met this person before, but now I may never get to meet this person (moreso since this person doesn't even live in the US). Fucking shame, too. :(
Person#3 - Still have hope for. If things go as planned, I might see this person next year during a trip to Twin. Worst-case scenario, another sudden circumstance will happen that'll cancel the trip.
Basically, I'm pretty damn sure that by August of next year (at latest) I can safely eliminate Reason #4 from the list, and after that the only real thing that would be stopping me from attempting anything is mood. So in a sense, if I don't see some kind of professional help by August of next year, I could be an EXTREMELY volatile individual, MUCH much more than I am now. Yes, you read that right: worst-case scenario, you could start seeing Type F posts by summer of next year, which would basically be "uber Type B" posts. In short:
"Type F: I'm having a mental Armageddon - IF YOU SEE A POST OF THIS TYPE, CALL 911 NOW, AS I AM PROBABLY SUICIDAL AT THIS POINT"
But you won't see Type F on my "Types of Posts" list anytime soon - which means that I don't plan on having suicidal thoughts anytime soon. Now you've been updated on why. ^_^
So don't fret: I'll STILL be alive in the coming months. Well, hopefully at least (especially now with my occasional bouts of batshit insanity - ugh).
- siggy
[Sig Note: Opera SUCKS for typing blogs (or anything for that matter) in-browser, so I typed this on Notepad - complete with HTML and stuff. Take THAT, Opera! Nyeh.]
Sunday, November 25, 2007
OH GOOD GOD THIS PAGE IS CRAZY LONG!!
Type E post.
Honestly, as of this post, almost half of this page is my "Journey Through The No-Internet Zone" uber-post, and an additional quarter of it is my previous post. Basically, three-fourths of this page is from two posts.
In short, the scroll here is fucking CRAZY. O_O
After my next post, I'll make an additional post to bump my uber-post off of the page. ^o^
Heh, so this is what I get for having a 10-post limit on my page. ^^;;
- siggy
Honestly, as of this post, almost half of this page is my "Journey Through The No-Internet Zone" uber-post, and an additional quarter of it is my previous post. Basically, three-fourths of this page is from two posts.
In short, the scroll here is fucking CRAZY. O_O
After my next post, I'll make an additional post to bump my uber-post off of the page. ^o^
Heh, so this is what I get for having a 10-post limit on my page. ^^;;
- siggy
Oops, forgot the title (has happened twice now)
Type A/D/E post, mostly Type E.
First thing's first. I recently got the Dragon Ball Z Season 1 Boxset (35 bucks I think) over at Best Buy, and after seeing the first two disks (out of six), it's actually pretty good. Brings back memories, and a few surprises as well since this the uncut version (the appearance of Lunch for example).
Also, I found (to my very pleasant surprise) Daft Punk's first album Homework (14 bucks), which I had been looking for for quite a while now. Haven't listened to it much so far, but that'll hopefully change soon. ^_^
Oh, and we went to Ketchum / Sun Valley Friday. It wasn't snowing unfortunately, but it was windy and cold. Overall, it was pretty meh. :/ The good thing about the trip is the fact that I finally updated my iPod beforehand, so now the songs on my iPod kick even more ass than usual. ^o^ I still need to take more songs out of it though (over seven MEGS of free space on a first-gen 4GB iPod nano). :(
Okay, now for the meat of the post. I went to the Personality Test Center website a couple hours ago and took the short version of the IPIP-NEO. This is a report of my results, copy-pasted to Notepad, fixed, and copy-pasted here.
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This report compares Sigmund Nuka from the country USA to other males less than 21 years of age. (The name used in this report is either a nickname chosen by the person taking the test, or, if a valid nickname was not chosen, a random nickname generated by the program.)
This report estimates the individual's level on each of the five broad personality domains of the Five-Factor Model. The description of each one of the five broad domains is followed by a more detailed description of personality according to the six subdomains that comprise each domain.
A note on terminology. Personality traits describe, relative to other people, the frequency or intensity of a person's feelings, thoughts, or behaviors. Possession of a trait is therefore a matter of degree. We might describe two individuals as extraverts, but still see one as more extraverted than the other. This report uses expressions such as "extravert" or "high in extraversion" to describe someone who is likely to be seen by others as relatively extraverted. The computer program that generates this report classifies you as low, average, or high in a trait according to whether your score is approximately in the lowest 30%, middle 40%, or highest 30% of scores obtained by people of your sex and roughly your age. Your numerical scores are reported and graphed as percentile estimates. For example, a score of "60" means that your level on that trait is estimated to be higher than 60% of persons of your sex and age.
Please keep in mind that "low," "average," and "high" scores on a personality test are neither absolutely good nor bad. A particular level on any trait will probably be neutral or irrelevant for a great many activites, be helpful for accomplishing some things, and detrimental for accomplishing other things. As with any personality inventory, scores and descriptions can only approximate an individual's actual personality. High and low score descriptions are usually accurate, but average scores close to the low or high boundaries might misclassify you as only average. On each set of six subdomain scales it is somewhat uncommon but certainly possible to score high in some of the subdomains and low in the others. In such cases more attention should be paid to the subdomain scores than to the broad domain score. Questions about the accuracy of your results are best resolved by showing your report to people who know you well.
John A. Johnson wrote descriptions of the five domains and thirty subdomains. These descriptions are based on an extensive reading of the scientific literature on personality measurement.
Extraversion
Extraversion is marked by pronounced engagement with the external world. Extraverts enjoy being with people, are full of energy, and often experience positive emotions. They tend to be enthusiastic, action-oriented, individuals who are likely to say "Yes!" or "Let's go!" to opportunities for excitement. In groups they like to talk, assert themselves, and draw attention to themselves.
Introverts lack the exuberance, energy, and activity levels of extraverts. They tend to be quiet, low-key, deliberate, and disengaged from the social world. Their lack of social involvement should not be interpreted as shyness or depression; the introvert simply needs less stimulation than an extravert and prefers to be alone. The independence and reserve of the introvert is sometimes mistaken as unfriendliness or arrogance. In reality, an introvert who scores high on the agreeableness dimension will not seek others out but will be quite pleasant when approached.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Extraversion...............1
Friendliness.............10
Gregariousness...........2
Assertiveness............1
Activity Level...........1
Excitement-Seeking.......3
Cheerfulness.............2
[Sig Note: Just a reminder: that Friendliness score is out of 100, not out of 10 like it may look like here ;)]
Your score on Extraversion is low, indicating you are introverted, reserved, and quiet. You enjoy solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends.
Extraversion Facets
- Friendliness. Friendly people genuinely like other people and openly demonstrate positive feelings toward others. They make friends quickly and it is easy for them to form close, intimate relationships. Low scorers on Friendliness are not necessarily cold and hostile, but they do not reach out to others and are perceived as distant and reserved. Your level of friendliness is low.
- Gregariousness. Gregarious people find the company of others pleasantly stimulating and rewarding. They enjoy the excitement of crowds. Low scorers tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. They do not necessarily dislike being with people sometimes, but their need for privacy and time to themselves is much greater than for individuals who score high on this scale. Your level of gregariousness is low.
- Assertiveness. High scorers Assertiveness like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. They tend to be leaders in groups. Low scorers tend not to talk much and let others control the activities of groups. Your level of assertiveness is low.
- Activity Level. Active individuals lead fast-paced, busy lives. They move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously, and they are involved in many activities. People who score low on this scale follow a slower and more leisurely, relaxed pace. Your activity level is low.
- Excitement-Seeking. High scorers on this scale are easily bored without high levels of stimulation. They love bright lights and hustle and bustle. They are likely to take risks and seek thrills. Low scorers are overwhelmed by noise and commotion and are adverse to thrill-seeking. Your level of excitement-seeking is low.
- Cheerfulness. This scale measures positive mood and feelings, not negative emotions (which are a part of the Neuroticism domain). Persons who score high on this scale typically experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy. Low scorers are not as prone to such energetic, high spirits. Your level of positive emotions is low.
Agreeableness
Agreeableness reflects individual differences in concern with cooperation and social harmony. Agreeable individuals value getting along with others. They are therefore considerate, friendly, generous, helpful, and willing to compromise their interests with others'. Agreeable people also have an optimistic view of human nature. They believe people are basically honest, decent, and trustworthy.
Disagreeable individuals place self-interest above getting along with others. They are generally unconcerned with others' well-being, and therefore are unlikely to extend themselves for other people. Sometimes their skepticism about others' motives causes them to be suspicious, unfriendly, and uncooperative.
Agreeableness is obviously advantageous for attaining and maintaining popularity. Agreeable people are better liked than disagreeable people. On the other hand, agreeableness is not useful in situations that require tough or absolute objective decisions. Disagreeable people can make excellent scientists, critics, or soldiers.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Agreeableness..............93
Trust....................29
Morality.................71
Altruism.................87
Cooperation..............90
Modesty..................99
Sympathy.................88
Your high level of Agreeableness indicates a strong interest in others' needs and well-being. You are pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative.
Agreeableness Facets
- Trust. A person with high trust assumes that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. Persons low in trust see others as selfish, devious, and potentially dangerous. Your level of trust is low.
- Morality. High scorers on this scale see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank, and sincere. Low scorers believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. People find it relatively easy to relate to the straightforward high-scorers on this scale. They generally find it more difficult to relate to the unstraightforward low-scorers on this scale. It should be made clear that low scorers are not unprincipled or immoral; they are simply more guarded and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth. Your level of morality is high.
- Altruism. Altruistic people find helping other people genuinely rewarding. Consequently, they are generally willing to assist those who are in need. Altruistic people find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice. Low scorers on this scale do not particularly like helping those in need. Requests for help feel like an imposition rather than an opportunity for self-fulfillment. Your level of altruism is high.
- Cooperation. Individuals who score high on this scale dislike confrontations. They are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny their own needs in order to get along with others. Those who score low on this scale are more likely to intimidate others to get their way. Your level of compliance is high.
- Modesty. High scorers on this scale do not like to claim that they are better than other people. In some cases this attitude may derive from low self-confidence or self-esteem. Nonetheless, some people with high self-esteem find immodesty unseemly. Those who are willing to describe themselves as superior tend to be seen as disagreeably arrogant by other people. Your level of modesty is high.
- Sympathy. People who score high on this scale are tenderhearted and compassionate. They feel the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity. Low scorers are not affected strongly by human suffering. They pride themselves on making objective judgments based on reason. They are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy. Your level of tender-mindedness is high.
Conscientiousness
Conscientiousness concerns the way in which we control, regulate, and direct our impulses. Impulses are not inherently bad; occasionally time constraints require a snap decision, and acting on our first impulse can be an effective response. Also, in times of play rather than work, acting spontaneously and impulsively can be fun. Impulsive individuals can be seen by others as colorful, fun-to-be-with, and zany.
Nonetheless, acting on impulse can lead to trouble in a number of ways. Some impulses are antisocial. Uncontrolled antisocial acts not only harm other members of society, but also can result in retribution toward the perpetrator of such impulsive acts. Another problem with impulsive acts is that they often produce immediate rewards but undesirable, long-term consequences. Examples include excessive socializing that leads to being fired from one's job, hurling an insult that causes the breakup of an important relationship, or using pleasure-inducing drugs that eventually destroy one's health.
Impulsive behavior, even when not seriously destructive, diminishes a person's effectiveness in significant ways. Acting impulsively disallows contemplating alternative courses of action, some of which would have been wiser than the impulsive choice. Impulsivity also sidetracks people during projects that require organized sequences of steps or stages. Accomplishments of an impulsive person are therefore small, scattered, and inconsistent.
A hallmark of intelligence, what potentially separates human beings from earlier life forms, is the ability to think about future consequences before acting on an impulse. Intelligent activity involves contemplation of long-range goals, organizing and planning routes to these goals, and persisting toward one's goals in the face of short-lived impulses to the contrary. The idea that intelligence involves impulse control is nicely captured by the term prudence, an alternative label for the Conscientiousness domain. Prudent means both wise and cautious. Persons who score high on the Conscientiousness scale are, in fact, perceived by others as intelligent.
The benefits of high conscientiousness are obvious. Conscientious individuals avoid trouble and achieve high levels of success through purposeful planning and persistence. They are also positively regarded by others as intelligent and reliable. On the negative side, they can be compulsive perfectionists and workaholics. Furthermore, extremely conscientious individuals might be regarded as stuffy and boring. Unconscientious people may be criticized for their unreliability, lack of ambition, and failure to stay within the lines, but they will experience many short-lived pleasures and they will never be called stuffy.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Conscientiousness..........18
Self-Efficacy............1
Orderliness..............50
Dutifulness..............71
Achievement-Striving.....5
Self-Discipline..........0
Cautiousness.............99
Your score on Conscientiousness is low, indicating you like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.
Conscientiousness Facets
- Self-Efficacy. Self-Efficacy describes confidence in one's ability to accomplish things. High scorers believe they have the intelligence (common sense), drive, and self-control necessary for achieving success. Low scorers do not feel effective, and may have a sense that they are not in control of their lives. Your level of self-efficacy is low.
- Orderliness. Persons with high scores on orderliness are well-organized. They like to live according to routines and schedules. They keep lists and make plans. Low scorers tend to be disorganized and scattered. Your level of orderliness is average.
- Dutifulness. This scale reflects the strength of a person's sense of duty and obligation. Those who score high on this scale have a strong sense of moral obligation. Low scorers find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining. They are likely to be seen as unreliable or even irresponsible. Your level of dutifulness is high.
- Achievement-Striving. Individuals who score high on this scale strive hard to achieve excellence. Their drive to be recognized as successful keeps them on track toward their lofty goals. They often have a strong sense of direction in life, but extremely high scores may be too single-minded and obsessed with their work. Low scorers are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. Your level of achievement striving is low.
- Self-Discipline. Self-discipline-what many people call will-power-refers to the ability to persist at difficult or unpleasant tasks until they are completed. People who possess high self-discipline are able to overcome reluctance to begin tasks and stay on track despite distractions. Those with low self-discipline procrastinate and show poor follow-through, often failing to complete tasks-even tasks they want very much to complete. Your level of self-discipline is low.
- Cautiousness. Cautiousness describes the disposition to think through possibilities before acting. High scorers on the Cautiousness scale take their time when making decisions. Low scorers often say or do first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives. Your level of cautiousness is high.
Neuroticism
Freud originally used the term neurosis to describe a condition marked by mental distress, emotional suffering, and an inability to cope effectively with the normal demands of life. He suggested that everyone shows some signs of neurosis, but that we differ in our degree of suffering and our specific symptoms of distress. Today neuroticism refers to the tendency to experience negative feelings. Those who score high on Neuroticism may experience primarily one specific negative feeling such as anxiety, anger, or depression, but are likely to experience several of these emotions. People high in neuroticism are emotionally reactive. They respond emotionally to events that would not affect most people, and their reactions tend to be more intense than normal. They are more likely to interpret ordinary situations as threatening, and minor frustrations as hopelessly difficult. Their negative emotional reactions tend to persist for unusually long periods of time, which means they are often in a bad mood. These problems in emotional regulation can diminish a neurotic's ability to think clearly, make decisions, and cope effectively with stress.
At the other end of the scale, individuals who score low in neuroticism are less easily upset and are less emotionally reactive. They tend to be calm, emotionally stable, and free from persistent negative feelings. Freedom from negative feelings does not mean that low scorers experience a lot of positive feelings; frequency of positive emotions is a component of the Extraversion domain.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Neuroticism................93
Anxiety..................86
Anger....................50
Depression...............99
Self-Consciousness.......99
Immoderation.............22
Vulnerability............95
Your score on Neuroticism is high, indicating that you are easily upset, even by what most people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be sensitive and emotional.
Neuroticism Facets
- Anxiety. The "fight-or-flight" system of the brain of anxious individuals is too easily and too often engaged. Therefore, people who are high in anxiety often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. They may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. They feel tense, jittery, and nervous. Persons low in Anxiety are generally calm and fearless. Your level of anxiety is high.
- Anger. Persons who score high in Anger feel enraged when things do not go their way. They are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter when they feel they are being cheated. This scale measures the tendency to feel angry; whether or not the person expresses annoyance and hostility depends on the individual's level on Agreeableness. Low scorers do not get angry often or easily. Your level of anger is average.
- Depression. This scale measures the tendency to feel sad, dejected, and discouraged. High scorers lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. Low scorers tend to be free from these depressive feelings. Your level of depression is high.
- Self-Consciousness. Self-conscious individuals are sensitive about what others think of them. Their concern about rejection and ridicule cause them to feel shy and uncomfortable abound others. They are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Their fears that others will criticize or make fun of them are exaggerated and unrealistic, but their awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. Low scorers, in contrast, do not suffer from the mistaken impression that everyone is watching and judging them. They do not feel nervous in social situations. Your level or self-consciousness is high.
- Immoderation. Immoderate individuals feel strong cravings and urges that they have difficulty resisting. They tend to be oriented toward short-term pleasures and rewards rather than long- term consequences. Low scorers do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find themselves tempted to overindulge. Your level of immoderation is low.
- Vulnerability. High scorers on Vulnerability experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. Low scorers feel more poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed. Your level of vulnerability is high.
Openness to Experience
Openness to Experience describes a dimension of cognitive style that distinguishes imaginative, creative people from down-to-earth, conventional people. Open people are intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and sensitive to beauty. They tend to be, compared to closed people, more aware of their feelings. They tend to think and act in individualistic and nonconforming ways. Intellectuals typically score high on Openness to Experience; consequently, this factor has also been called Culture or Intellect. Nonetheless, Intellect is probably best regarded as one aspect of openness to experience. Scores on Openness to Experience are only modestly related to years of education and scores on standard intelligent tests.
Another characteristic of the open cognitive style is a facility for thinking in symbols and abstractions far removed from concrete experience. Depending on the individual's specific intellectual abilities, this symbolic cognition may take the form of mathematical, logical, or geometric thinking, artistic and metaphorical use of language, music composition or performance, or one of the many visual or performing arts. People with low scores on openness to experience tend to have narrow, common interests. They prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious over the complex, ambiguous, and subtle. They may regard the arts and sciences with suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use. Closed people prefer familiarity over novelty; they are conservative and resistant to change.
Openness is often presented as healthier or more mature by psychologists, who are often themselves open to experience. However, open and closed styles of thinking are useful in different environments. The intellectual style of the open person may serve a professor well, but research has shown that closed thinking is related to superior job performance in police work, sales, and a number of service occupations.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Openess to experience.....64
Imagination..............86
Artistic Interests.......27
Emotionality.............91
Adventurousness..........29
Intellect................25
Liberalism...............90
Your score on Openness to Experience is average, indicating you enjoy tradition but are willing to try new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual.
Openness Facets
- Imagination. To imaginative individuals, the real world is often too plain and ordinary. High scorers on this scale use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world. Low scorers are on this scale are more oriented to facts than fantasy. Your level of imagination is high.
- Artistic Interests. High scorers on this scale love beauty, both in art and in nature. They become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. They are not necessarily artistically trained nor talented, although many will be. The defining features of this scale are interest in, and appreciation of natural and artificial beauty. Low scorers lack aesthetic sensitivity and interest in the arts. Your level of artistic interests is low.
- Emotionality. Persons high on Emotionality have good access to and awareness of their own feelings. Low scorers are less aware of their feelings and tend not to express their emotions openly. Your level of emotionality is high.
- Adventurousness. High scorers on adventurousness are eager to try new activities, travel to foreign lands, and experience different things. They find familiarity and routine boring, and will take a new route home just because it is different. Low scorers tend to feel uncomfortable with change and prefer familiar routines. Your level of adventurousness is low.
- Intellect. Intellect and artistic interests are the two most important, central aspects of openness to experience. High scorers on Intellect love to play with ideas. They are open-minded to new and unusual ideas, and like to debate intellectual issues. They enjoy riddles, puzzles, and brain teasers. Low scorers on Intellect prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. They regard intellectual exercises as a waste of time. Intellect should not be equated with intelligence. Intellect is an intellectual style, not an intellectual ability, although high scorers on Intellect score slightly higher than low-Intellect individuals on standardized intelligence tests. Your level of intellect is low.
- Liberalism. Psychological liberalism refers to a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. In its most extreme form, psychological liberalism can even represent outright hostility toward rules, sympathy for law-breakers, and love of ambiguity, chaos, and disorder. Psychological conservatives prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. Psychological liberalism and conservatism are not identical to political affiliation, but certainly incline individuals toward certain political parties. Your level of liberalism is high.
Note: The report sent to your computer screen upon the completion of the IPIP-NEO is only a temporary web page. When you exit your web browser you will not be able to return to this URL to re-access your report. No copies of the report are sent to anyone. If you want a permanent copy of the report, you must save the web page to your hard drive or a diskette, and/or print the report while you are still viewing it in your web browser. If you choose to save your report, naming it with an .htm extension (example: Myreport.htm) as you save it may help you to read it into a web browser later.
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Interesting, eh?
Well, that's all for now. I feel like I'm talking to thin air here since no one ever responds to these posts, and therefore I believe that no one ever reads these. If you're reading this: RESPOND, DAMMIT! ;_;
- siggy
Edit: Added title (oops - hehe), bolded stuff for better readability, and added a missing period after "Type E".
First thing's first. I recently got the Dragon Ball Z Season 1 Boxset (35 bucks I think) over at Best Buy, and after seeing the first two disks (out of six), it's actually pretty good. Brings back memories, and a few surprises as well since this the uncut version (the appearance of Lunch for example).
Also, I found (to my very pleasant surprise) Daft Punk's first album Homework (14 bucks), which I had been looking for for quite a while now. Haven't listened to it much so far, but that'll hopefully change soon. ^_^
Oh, and we went to Ketchum / Sun Valley Friday. It wasn't snowing unfortunately, but it was windy and cold. Overall, it was pretty meh. :/ The good thing about the trip is the fact that I finally updated my iPod beforehand, so now the songs on my iPod kick even more ass than usual. ^o^ I still need to take more songs out of it though (over seven MEGS of free space on a first-gen 4GB iPod nano). :(
Okay, now for the meat of the post. I went to the Personality Test Center website a couple hours ago and took the short version of the IPIP-NEO. This is a report of my results, copy-pasted to Notepad, fixed, and copy-pasted here.
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This report compares Sigmund Nuka from the country USA to other males less than 21 years of age. (The name used in this report is either a nickname chosen by the person taking the test, or, if a valid nickname was not chosen, a random nickname generated by the program.)
This report estimates the individual's level on each of the five broad personality domains of the Five-Factor Model. The description of each one of the five broad domains is followed by a more detailed description of personality according to the six subdomains that comprise each domain.
A note on terminology. Personality traits describe, relative to other people, the frequency or intensity of a person's feelings, thoughts, or behaviors. Possession of a trait is therefore a matter of degree. We might describe two individuals as extraverts, but still see one as more extraverted than the other. This report uses expressions such as "extravert" or "high in extraversion" to describe someone who is likely to be seen by others as relatively extraverted. The computer program that generates this report classifies you as low, average, or high in a trait according to whether your score is approximately in the lowest 30%, middle 40%, or highest 30% of scores obtained by people of your sex and roughly your age. Your numerical scores are reported and graphed as percentile estimates. For example, a score of "60" means that your level on that trait is estimated to be higher than 60% of persons of your sex and age.
Please keep in mind that "low," "average," and "high" scores on a personality test are neither absolutely good nor bad. A particular level on any trait will probably be neutral or irrelevant for a great many activites, be helpful for accomplishing some things, and detrimental for accomplishing other things. As with any personality inventory, scores and descriptions can only approximate an individual's actual personality. High and low score descriptions are usually accurate, but average scores close to the low or high boundaries might misclassify you as only average. On each set of six subdomain scales it is somewhat uncommon but certainly possible to score high in some of the subdomains and low in the others. In such cases more attention should be paid to the subdomain scores than to the broad domain score. Questions about the accuracy of your results are best resolved by showing your report to people who know you well.
John A. Johnson wrote descriptions of the five domains and thirty subdomains. These descriptions are based on an extensive reading of the scientific literature on personality measurement.
Extraversion
Extraversion is marked by pronounced engagement with the external world. Extraverts enjoy being with people, are full of energy, and often experience positive emotions. They tend to be enthusiastic, action-oriented, individuals who are likely to say "Yes!" or "Let's go!" to opportunities for excitement. In groups they like to talk, assert themselves, and draw attention to themselves.
Introverts lack the exuberance, energy, and activity levels of extraverts. They tend to be quiet, low-key, deliberate, and disengaged from the social world. Their lack of social involvement should not be interpreted as shyness or depression; the introvert simply needs less stimulation than an extravert and prefers to be alone. The independence and reserve of the introvert is sometimes mistaken as unfriendliness or arrogance. In reality, an introvert who scores high on the agreeableness dimension will not seek others out but will be quite pleasant when approached.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Extraversion...............1
Friendliness.............10
Gregariousness...........2
Assertiveness............1
Activity Level...........1
Excitement-Seeking.......3
Cheerfulness.............2
[Sig Note: Just a reminder: that Friendliness score is out of 100, not out of 10 like it may look like here ;)]
Your score on Extraversion is low, indicating you are introverted, reserved, and quiet. You enjoy solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends.
Extraversion Facets
- Friendliness. Friendly people genuinely like other people and openly demonstrate positive feelings toward others. They make friends quickly and it is easy for them to form close, intimate relationships. Low scorers on Friendliness are not necessarily cold and hostile, but they do not reach out to others and are perceived as distant and reserved. Your level of friendliness is low.
- Gregariousness. Gregarious people find the company of others pleasantly stimulating and rewarding. They enjoy the excitement of crowds. Low scorers tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. They do not necessarily dislike being with people sometimes, but their need for privacy and time to themselves is much greater than for individuals who score high on this scale. Your level of gregariousness is low.
- Assertiveness. High scorers Assertiveness like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. They tend to be leaders in groups. Low scorers tend not to talk much and let others control the activities of groups. Your level of assertiveness is low.
- Activity Level. Active individuals lead fast-paced, busy lives. They move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously, and they are involved in many activities. People who score low on this scale follow a slower and more leisurely, relaxed pace. Your activity level is low.
- Excitement-Seeking. High scorers on this scale are easily bored without high levels of stimulation. They love bright lights and hustle and bustle. They are likely to take risks and seek thrills. Low scorers are overwhelmed by noise and commotion and are adverse to thrill-seeking. Your level of excitement-seeking is low.
- Cheerfulness. This scale measures positive mood and feelings, not negative emotions (which are a part of the Neuroticism domain). Persons who score high on this scale typically experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy. Low scorers are not as prone to such energetic, high spirits. Your level of positive emotions is low.
Agreeableness
Agreeableness reflects individual differences in concern with cooperation and social harmony. Agreeable individuals value getting along with others. They are therefore considerate, friendly, generous, helpful, and willing to compromise their interests with others'. Agreeable people also have an optimistic view of human nature. They believe people are basically honest, decent, and trustworthy.
Disagreeable individuals place self-interest above getting along with others. They are generally unconcerned with others' well-being, and therefore are unlikely to extend themselves for other people. Sometimes their skepticism about others' motives causes them to be suspicious, unfriendly, and uncooperative.
Agreeableness is obviously advantageous for attaining and maintaining popularity. Agreeable people are better liked than disagreeable people. On the other hand, agreeableness is not useful in situations that require tough or absolute objective decisions. Disagreeable people can make excellent scientists, critics, or soldiers.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Agreeableness..............93
Trust....................29
Morality.................71
Altruism.................87
Cooperation..............90
Modesty..................99
Sympathy.................88
Your high level of Agreeableness indicates a strong interest in others' needs and well-being. You are pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative.
Agreeableness Facets
- Trust. A person with high trust assumes that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. Persons low in trust see others as selfish, devious, and potentially dangerous. Your level of trust is low.
- Morality. High scorers on this scale see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank, and sincere. Low scorers believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. People find it relatively easy to relate to the straightforward high-scorers on this scale. They generally find it more difficult to relate to the unstraightforward low-scorers on this scale. It should be made clear that low scorers are not unprincipled or immoral; they are simply more guarded and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth. Your level of morality is high.
- Altruism. Altruistic people find helping other people genuinely rewarding. Consequently, they are generally willing to assist those who are in need. Altruistic people find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice. Low scorers on this scale do not particularly like helping those in need. Requests for help feel like an imposition rather than an opportunity for self-fulfillment. Your level of altruism is high.
- Cooperation. Individuals who score high on this scale dislike confrontations. They are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny their own needs in order to get along with others. Those who score low on this scale are more likely to intimidate others to get their way. Your level of compliance is high.
- Modesty. High scorers on this scale do not like to claim that they are better than other people. In some cases this attitude may derive from low self-confidence or self-esteem. Nonetheless, some people with high self-esteem find immodesty unseemly. Those who are willing to describe themselves as superior tend to be seen as disagreeably arrogant by other people. Your level of modesty is high.
- Sympathy. People who score high on this scale are tenderhearted and compassionate. They feel the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity. Low scorers are not affected strongly by human suffering. They pride themselves on making objective judgments based on reason. They are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy. Your level of tender-mindedness is high.
Conscientiousness
Conscientiousness concerns the way in which we control, regulate, and direct our impulses. Impulses are not inherently bad; occasionally time constraints require a snap decision, and acting on our first impulse can be an effective response. Also, in times of play rather than work, acting spontaneously and impulsively can be fun. Impulsive individuals can be seen by others as colorful, fun-to-be-with, and zany.
Nonetheless, acting on impulse can lead to trouble in a number of ways. Some impulses are antisocial. Uncontrolled antisocial acts not only harm other members of society, but also can result in retribution toward the perpetrator of such impulsive acts. Another problem with impulsive acts is that they often produce immediate rewards but undesirable, long-term consequences. Examples include excessive socializing that leads to being fired from one's job, hurling an insult that causes the breakup of an important relationship, or using pleasure-inducing drugs that eventually destroy one's health.
Impulsive behavior, even when not seriously destructive, diminishes a person's effectiveness in significant ways. Acting impulsively disallows contemplating alternative courses of action, some of which would have been wiser than the impulsive choice. Impulsivity also sidetracks people during projects that require organized sequences of steps or stages. Accomplishments of an impulsive person are therefore small, scattered, and inconsistent.
A hallmark of intelligence, what potentially separates human beings from earlier life forms, is the ability to think about future consequences before acting on an impulse. Intelligent activity involves contemplation of long-range goals, organizing and planning routes to these goals, and persisting toward one's goals in the face of short-lived impulses to the contrary. The idea that intelligence involves impulse control is nicely captured by the term prudence, an alternative label for the Conscientiousness domain. Prudent means both wise and cautious. Persons who score high on the Conscientiousness scale are, in fact, perceived by others as intelligent.
The benefits of high conscientiousness are obvious. Conscientious individuals avoid trouble and achieve high levels of success through purposeful planning and persistence. They are also positively regarded by others as intelligent and reliable. On the negative side, they can be compulsive perfectionists and workaholics. Furthermore, extremely conscientious individuals might be regarded as stuffy and boring. Unconscientious people may be criticized for their unreliability, lack of ambition, and failure to stay within the lines, but they will experience many short-lived pleasures and they will never be called stuffy.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Conscientiousness..........18
Self-Efficacy............1
Orderliness..............50
Dutifulness..............71
Achievement-Striving.....5
Self-Discipline..........0
Cautiousness.............99
Your score on Conscientiousness is low, indicating you like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.
Conscientiousness Facets
- Self-Efficacy. Self-Efficacy describes confidence in one's ability to accomplish things. High scorers believe they have the intelligence (common sense), drive, and self-control necessary for achieving success. Low scorers do not feel effective, and may have a sense that they are not in control of their lives. Your level of self-efficacy is low.
- Orderliness. Persons with high scores on orderliness are well-organized. They like to live according to routines and schedules. They keep lists and make plans. Low scorers tend to be disorganized and scattered. Your level of orderliness is average.
- Dutifulness. This scale reflects the strength of a person's sense of duty and obligation. Those who score high on this scale have a strong sense of moral obligation. Low scorers find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining. They are likely to be seen as unreliable or even irresponsible. Your level of dutifulness is high.
- Achievement-Striving. Individuals who score high on this scale strive hard to achieve excellence. Their drive to be recognized as successful keeps them on track toward their lofty goals. They often have a strong sense of direction in life, but extremely high scores may be too single-minded and obsessed with their work. Low scorers are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. Your level of achievement striving is low.
- Self-Discipline. Self-discipline-what many people call will-power-refers to the ability to persist at difficult or unpleasant tasks until they are completed. People who possess high self-discipline are able to overcome reluctance to begin tasks and stay on track despite distractions. Those with low self-discipline procrastinate and show poor follow-through, often failing to complete tasks-even tasks they want very much to complete. Your level of self-discipline is low.
- Cautiousness. Cautiousness describes the disposition to think through possibilities before acting. High scorers on the Cautiousness scale take their time when making decisions. Low scorers often say or do first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives. Your level of cautiousness is high.
Neuroticism
Freud originally used the term neurosis to describe a condition marked by mental distress, emotional suffering, and an inability to cope effectively with the normal demands of life. He suggested that everyone shows some signs of neurosis, but that we differ in our degree of suffering and our specific symptoms of distress. Today neuroticism refers to the tendency to experience negative feelings. Those who score high on Neuroticism may experience primarily one specific negative feeling such as anxiety, anger, or depression, but are likely to experience several of these emotions. People high in neuroticism are emotionally reactive. They respond emotionally to events that would not affect most people, and their reactions tend to be more intense than normal. They are more likely to interpret ordinary situations as threatening, and minor frustrations as hopelessly difficult. Their negative emotional reactions tend to persist for unusually long periods of time, which means they are often in a bad mood. These problems in emotional regulation can diminish a neurotic's ability to think clearly, make decisions, and cope effectively with stress.
At the other end of the scale, individuals who score low in neuroticism are less easily upset and are less emotionally reactive. They tend to be calm, emotionally stable, and free from persistent negative feelings. Freedom from negative feelings does not mean that low scorers experience a lot of positive feelings; frequency of positive emotions is a component of the Extraversion domain.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Neuroticism................93
Anxiety..................86
Anger....................50
Depression...............99
Self-Consciousness.......99
Immoderation.............22
Vulnerability............95
Your score on Neuroticism is high, indicating that you are easily upset, even by what most people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be sensitive and emotional.
Neuroticism Facets
- Anxiety. The "fight-or-flight" system of the brain of anxious individuals is too easily and too often engaged. Therefore, people who are high in anxiety often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. They may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. They feel tense, jittery, and nervous. Persons low in Anxiety are generally calm and fearless. Your level of anxiety is high.
- Anger. Persons who score high in Anger feel enraged when things do not go their way. They are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter when they feel they are being cheated. This scale measures the tendency to feel angry; whether or not the person expresses annoyance and hostility depends on the individual's level on Agreeableness. Low scorers do not get angry often or easily. Your level of anger is average.
- Depression. This scale measures the tendency to feel sad, dejected, and discouraged. High scorers lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. Low scorers tend to be free from these depressive feelings. Your level of depression is high.
- Self-Consciousness. Self-conscious individuals are sensitive about what others think of them. Their concern about rejection and ridicule cause them to feel shy and uncomfortable abound others. They are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Their fears that others will criticize or make fun of them are exaggerated and unrealistic, but their awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. Low scorers, in contrast, do not suffer from the mistaken impression that everyone is watching and judging them. They do not feel nervous in social situations. Your level or self-consciousness is high.
- Immoderation. Immoderate individuals feel strong cravings and urges that they have difficulty resisting. They tend to be oriented toward short-term pleasures and rewards rather than long- term consequences. Low scorers do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find themselves tempted to overindulge. Your level of immoderation is low.
- Vulnerability. High scorers on Vulnerability experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. Low scorers feel more poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed. Your level of vulnerability is high.
Openness to Experience
Openness to Experience describes a dimension of cognitive style that distinguishes imaginative, creative people from down-to-earth, conventional people. Open people are intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and sensitive to beauty. They tend to be, compared to closed people, more aware of their feelings. They tend to think and act in individualistic and nonconforming ways. Intellectuals typically score high on Openness to Experience; consequently, this factor has also been called Culture or Intellect. Nonetheless, Intellect is probably best regarded as one aspect of openness to experience. Scores on Openness to Experience are only modestly related to years of education and scores on standard intelligent tests.
Another characteristic of the open cognitive style is a facility for thinking in symbols and abstractions far removed from concrete experience. Depending on the individual's specific intellectual abilities, this symbolic cognition may take the form of mathematical, logical, or geometric thinking, artistic and metaphorical use of language, music composition or performance, or one of the many visual or performing arts. People with low scores on openness to experience tend to have narrow, common interests. They prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious over the complex, ambiguous, and subtle. They may regard the arts and sciences with suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use. Closed people prefer familiarity over novelty; they are conservative and resistant to change.
Openness is often presented as healthier or more mature by psychologists, who are often themselves open to experience. However, open and closed styles of thinking are useful in different environments. The intellectual style of the open person may serve a professor well, but research has shown that closed thinking is related to superior job performance in police work, sales, and a number of service occupations.
Domain/Facet............ Score
Openess to experience.....64
Imagination..............86
Artistic Interests.......27
Emotionality.............91
Adventurousness..........29
Intellect................25
Liberalism...............90
Your score on Openness to Experience is average, indicating you enjoy tradition but are willing to try new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual.
Openness Facets
- Imagination. To imaginative individuals, the real world is often too plain and ordinary. High scorers on this scale use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world. Low scorers are on this scale are more oriented to facts than fantasy. Your level of imagination is high.
- Artistic Interests. High scorers on this scale love beauty, both in art and in nature. They become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. They are not necessarily artistically trained nor talented, although many will be. The defining features of this scale are interest in, and appreciation of natural and artificial beauty. Low scorers lack aesthetic sensitivity and interest in the arts. Your level of artistic interests is low.
- Emotionality. Persons high on Emotionality have good access to and awareness of their own feelings. Low scorers are less aware of their feelings and tend not to express their emotions openly. Your level of emotionality is high.
- Adventurousness. High scorers on adventurousness are eager to try new activities, travel to foreign lands, and experience different things. They find familiarity and routine boring, and will take a new route home just because it is different. Low scorers tend to feel uncomfortable with change and prefer familiar routines. Your level of adventurousness is low.
- Intellect. Intellect and artistic interests are the two most important, central aspects of openness to experience. High scorers on Intellect love to play with ideas. They are open-minded to new and unusual ideas, and like to debate intellectual issues. They enjoy riddles, puzzles, and brain teasers. Low scorers on Intellect prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. They regard intellectual exercises as a waste of time. Intellect should not be equated with intelligence. Intellect is an intellectual style, not an intellectual ability, although high scorers on Intellect score slightly higher than low-Intellect individuals on standardized intelligence tests. Your level of intellect is low.
- Liberalism. Psychological liberalism refers to a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. In its most extreme form, psychological liberalism can even represent outright hostility toward rules, sympathy for law-breakers, and love of ambiguity, chaos, and disorder. Psychological conservatives prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. Psychological liberalism and conservatism are not identical to political affiliation, but certainly incline individuals toward certain political parties. Your level of liberalism is high.
Note: The report sent to your computer screen upon the completion of the IPIP-NEO is only a temporary web page. When you exit your web browser you will not be able to return to this URL to re-access your report. No copies of the report are sent to anyone. If you want a permanent copy of the report, you must save the web page to your hard drive or a diskette, and/or print the report while you are still viewing it in your web browser. If you choose to save your report, naming it with an .htm extension (example: Myreport.htm) as you save it may help you to read it into a web browser later.
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Interesting, eh?
Well, that's all for now. I feel like I'm talking to thin air here since no one ever responds to these posts, and therefore I believe that no one ever reads these. If you're reading this: RESPOND, DAMMIT! ;_;
- siggy
Edit: Added title (oops - hehe), bolded stuff for better readability, and added a missing period after "Type E".
Friday, November 9, 2007
Still dead on the inside
Type B shitfest, so hide the children.
I've just about had it. I'm starting to get my bouts of insanity much more often lately, and it's not helping my self-esteem AT ALL. Also, I'm starting to become as isolated online as I am in the "real world", and that's not good for my self-esteem either.
In short, my self-esteem has taken a drastic hit lately, and nothing I do seems to be helping. Asking other people for help would just make me look like an ego-maniac (as if I'm not already a self-centered bitch anyway), so I'm hoping things'll get better during the weekend (which is when I'm most likely to actually step foot out of my house). Best-case scenario, someone replies to this. Worst-case scenario, my next post will be Unsorted Shit 3 (with the dreaded Type B/E combination).
For those of you unfamiliar with Unsorted Shit, it's when I just go nuts and type whatever thought comes to mind. Some of it is nonsense, some of it is pure gibberish, some of it is attacking my personal self, and some of it is me confessing to feeling this way or that way. Hence, "Unsorted Shit": an uncensored, unsorted collection of thoughts that I purge out of my mind. I use the word "purge" because that's what it is: a purging of thoughts in order to hopefully make myself feel better. The severity of me posting an Unsorted Shit is about as equal to having to reinstall your operating system because your computer is basically a mess. In other words, a last-minute effort to save whatever it is you're trying to save (computer or mind) before things turn to the worse.
I hope I improve mentally by tomorrow, or else things are gonna get ugly. ;_;
- siggy
I've just about had it. I'm starting to get my bouts of insanity much more often lately, and it's not helping my self-esteem AT ALL. Also, I'm starting to become as isolated online as I am in the "real world", and that's not good for my self-esteem either.
In short, my self-esteem has taken a drastic hit lately, and nothing I do seems to be helping. Asking other people for help would just make me look like an ego-maniac (as if I'm not already a self-centered bitch anyway), so I'm hoping things'll get better during the weekend (which is when I'm most likely to actually step foot out of my house). Best-case scenario, someone replies to this. Worst-case scenario, my next post will be Unsorted Shit 3 (with the dreaded Type B/E combination).
For those of you unfamiliar with Unsorted Shit, it's when I just go nuts and type whatever thought comes to mind. Some of it is nonsense, some of it is pure gibberish, some of it is attacking my personal self, and some of it is me confessing to feeling this way or that way. Hence, "Unsorted Shit": an uncensored, unsorted collection of thoughts that I purge out of my mind. I use the word "purge" because that's what it is: a purging of thoughts in order to hopefully make myself feel better. The severity of me posting an Unsorted Shit is about as equal to having to reinstall your operating system because your computer is basically a mess. In other words, a last-minute effort to save whatever it is you're trying to save (computer or mind) before things turn to the worse.
I hope I improve mentally by tomorrow, or else things are gonna get ugly. ;_;
- siggy
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Dead on the inside
Type A/D post, maybe Type B as well. We'll see how it goes.
First an announcement. There will NOT be a Type C flood as I originally planned. Instead, go to my Idea Conservatorium in the Links section. The forums won't load under Opera but everything else is fine. Still need to do a couple of stuff here and there, but it's mostly finished.
Now for updates. I added a "Manga Wish List" of sorts under my list of manga. Why? I got bored. Also, I'll be adding an "Anime Collection" list (and wish list) sometime in the future, once I actually have a collection of anime (three measly box sets a collection does not make). Or when December comes around. :V
Oh, and I DO still have that image as my desktop. It's AWESOME. :D
BTW, my game collection at my 1up.com profile is STILL current. Pawn shops hate me apparently, since there's no longer a shop close to my house (there used to be two). :(
Now for a manga update. ^o^
- School Rumble: Picked this up 'cause it looked interesting enough (and I was running out of manga to buy in-store). It's actually pretty good, especially the whole "romantic comedy" bit. The mass-misunderstandings does kinda irritate me a bit (although thankfully one dire situation was hilariously averted - gotta love Akira), but this series gets addicting for that very reason (you start hoping things get cleared up, but the more they do the more misunderstandings appear). I got into this series kinda early though (only seven volumes out right now), but it's GOOD. :D
- Negima!: Magister Negi Magi: Thirteen bucks for the Omnibus volume?! HELL YES! Since it looked half-interesting (and since people were comparing it to Harry Potter, of which I avoid like the plague but since this is manga...), I decided to get it.
Good fucking choice. WOW, now this is a series I can get addicted to. And even better is the fact that B&N has a bunch of volumes of this series. Gimme a month or so, and I can (hopefully) surpass Naruto's nine-volume record with ease. ^o^
Currently I'm rereading the Omnibus volume (slowly of course), and the story is still as addictive as the first time through. I'll probably reread the books many times in the coming months so that the wait between new volumes won't be as bad (one of the disadvantages of an allowance). :D
I recommend both series to everyone. Also, I bought that second volume of the FLCL manga as promised, but I have yet to read it. I don't wanna, either (the first volume was confusing enough). Also, I'm planning on buying the first volume of the Pumpkin Scissors manga when it comes out, so hopefully B&N will have it in-store (unlike Cromartie High School - bastards).
Well, I think that covers it. I'm bored as fuck right now, and it's getting extremely lonely here (well, more than usual anyway), so COMMENT mothafuckas. ;_;
'Till next time.
- siggy
First an announcement. There will NOT be a Type C flood as I originally planned. Instead, go to my Idea Conservatorium in the Links section. The forums won't load under Opera but everything else is fine. Still need to do a couple of stuff here and there, but it's mostly finished.
Now for updates. I added a "Manga Wish List" of sorts under my list of manga. Why? I got bored. Also, I'll be adding an "Anime Collection" list (and wish list) sometime in the future, once I actually have a collection of anime (three measly box sets a collection does not make). Or when December comes around. :V
Oh, and I DO still have that image as my desktop. It's AWESOME. :D
BTW, my game collection at my 1up.com profile is STILL current. Pawn shops hate me apparently, since there's no longer a shop close to my house (there used to be two). :(
Now for a manga update. ^o^
- School Rumble: Picked this up 'cause it looked interesting enough (and I was running out of manga to buy in-store). It's actually pretty good, especially the whole "romantic comedy" bit. The mass-misunderstandings does kinda irritate me a bit (although thankfully one dire situation was hilariously averted - gotta love Akira), but this series gets addicting for that very reason (you start hoping things get cleared up, but the more they do the more misunderstandings appear). I got into this series kinda early though (only seven volumes out right now), but it's GOOD. :D
- Negima!: Magister Negi Magi: Thirteen bucks for the Omnibus volume?! HELL YES! Since it looked half-interesting (and since people were comparing it to Harry Potter, of which I avoid like the plague but since this is manga...), I decided to get it.
Good fucking choice. WOW, now this is a series I can get addicted to. And even better is the fact that B&N has a bunch of volumes of this series. Gimme a month or so, and I can (hopefully) surpass Naruto's nine-volume record with ease. ^o^
Currently I'm rereading the Omnibus volume (slowly of course), and the story is still as addictive as the first time through. I'll probably reread the books many times in the coming months so that the wait between new volumes won't be as bad (one of the disadvantages of an allowance). :D
I recommend both series to everyone. Also, I bought that second volume of the FLCL manga as promised, but I have yet to read it. I don't wanna, either (the first volume was confusing enough). Also, I'm planning on buying the first volume of the Pumpkin Scissors manga when it comes out, so hopefully B&N will have it in-store (unlike Cromartie High School - bastards).
Well, I think that covers it. I'm bored as fuck right now, and it's getting extremely lonely here (well, more than usual anyway), so COMMENT mothafuckas. ;_;
'Till next time.
- siggy
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Does anyone ever read these? (or: I kick ass in Tetris! Woo!)
Type D/E post.
Sunday afternoon after much deliberating I decided to take out my Game Boy Advance SP and started playing Tetris for the ORIGINAL Game Boy (A-Type play of course). Here's how I did.
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Score: 61421
Level Started: 6
Level Reached: 12
Total Lines: 121
Score: 74632
Level Started: 6
Level Reached: 11
Total Lines: 113
Score: 61123
Level Started: 6
Level Reached: 9
Total Lines: 99
Score: 24318
Level Started: 6
Total Lines: 46
Score: 11403
Level Started: 6
Total Lines: 36
[Sig Note: I see a pattern here. :P]
Score: 110487 [Sig Note: OMG rocket animation!]
Level Started: 6
Level Reached: 13
Total Lines: 130
[Sig Note: So I break said pattern, and any chance of seeing anyone beat my score. >:D I think I'll stop here for now.]
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I think I kick ass in Tetris. >:D
For those of you able to read this through Facebook, I uploaded the song that I listened to while playing Tetris (on repeat of course) to my profile. Have a listen 'cause it kicks ass. ^o^
For the rest of you, I'll (hopefully) post a related video to my House of Media blog very soon. It'll have the song in question as BGM to some VERY kick-ass non-Tetris related gameplay. ^o^
'Till next time. ^_^
- siggy
Sunday afternoon after much deliberating I decided to take out my Game Boy Advance SP and started playing Tetris for the ORIGINAL Game Boy (A-Type play of course). Here's how I did.
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Score: 61421
Level Started: 6
Level Reached: 12
Total Lines: 121
Score: 74632
Level Started: 6
Level Reached: 11
Total Lines: 113
Score: 61123
Level Started: 6
Level Reached: 9
Total Lines: 99
Score: 24318
Level Started: 6
Total Lines: 46
Score: 11403
Level Started: 6
Total Lines: 36
[Sig Note: I see a pattern here. :P]
Score: 110487 [Sig Note: OMG rocket animation!]
Level Started: 6
Level Reached: 13
Total Lines: 130
[Sig Note: So I break said pattern, and any chance of seeing anyone beat my score. >:D I think I'll stop here for now.]
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I think I kick ass in Tetris. >:D
For those of you able to read this through Facebook, I uploaded the song that I listened to while playing Tetris (on repeat of course) to my profile. Have a listen 'cause it kicks ass. ^o^
For the rest of you, I'll (hopefully) post a related video to my House of Media blog very soon. It'll have the song in question as BGM to some VERY kick-ass non-Tetris related gameplay. ^o^
'Till next time. ^_^
- siggy
Sunday, July 29, 2007
New Manga! (or: How I Learned to Delay the Type C Flood)
Type A post.
Yes, new manga. Since B&N has everything but the 10th volume of Naruto, and since the 4th volume of Yotsuba&! hasn't appeared in-store yet, I decided to try new manga titles. Success rate? 50% (sadly).
- FLCL: I had high hopes with this one. Since the anime is apparently SOOOO popular because apparently it's SOOOO good, the manga version should be good as well, right?
WRONG! Honestly, the art style is SOOOO horrible that I SOOOO couldn't understand the fucking plot. And the humor? Next to nonexistent, or at least for me it was because the art style made the story SOOOO hard to follow that any possible humor that was there was lost in the confusing mess.
The good news? It's only two volumes, and the 2nd one was at B&N as well. Since I don't like to leave things unfinished, I'm getting that 2nd volume solely for completion purposes. Unfortunately, I'm not looking forward to purchasing (or my attempt at reading) it.
Thankfully, I read FLCL first, because it made this next one that much more enjoyable.
- Welcome to the N.H.K.: That's right, somewhere on my MASSIVE catch-up blog post was a list of manga titles I was considering on purchasing; now it's time to scratch off one of the names. I originally was considering purchasing this some time back, but the book wrapping over it and the 18+ rating left me to instead grab a safer title: LIFE (well, safer as in rating anyway). Since the 6th volume of LIFE doesn't come out for another month and a half, I have to rely on another touchy-subject manga in the meantime.
After going through FLCL, this was a BIG relief. Also, it's interesting just how psychotic the main character can get - I'm fucking tame in comparison. But other than his paranoid tendencies, his acquired "lolita complex" (thanks to his neighbor), and his questionable drug-use, Tatsuhiro Sato is basically a really REALLY extreme version of myself. Or at least that's what I'm understanding of him (there's still more volumes to be read). Honestly, his thought processes during the beginning of the first chapter when he meets the missionaries are VERY similar to what I would've thought in the same situation. Kick-ass (and quite pathetically sad as well). ^o^
Basically, I recommend Welcome to the N.H.K. and advise people to stay away from the manga version of FLCL.
That's all for now. Hopefully I can get the urge to do my Type C flood soon. If not, expect more useless posts like this one.
Till next time.
- siggy
Yes, new manga. Since B&N has everything but the 10th volume of Naruto, and since the 4th volume of Yotsuba&! hasn't appeared in-store yet, I decided to try new manga titles. Success rate? 50% (sadly).
- FLCL: I had high hopes with this one. Since the anime is apparently SOOOO popular because apparently it's SOOOO good, the manga version should be good as well, right?
WRONG! Honestly, the art style is SOOOO horrible that I SOOOO couldn't understand the fucking plot. And the humor? Next to nonexistent, or at least for me it was because the art style made the story SOOOO hard to follow that any possible humor that was there was lost in the confusing mess.
The good news? It's only two volumes, and the 2nd one was at B&N as well. Since I don't like to leave things unfinished, I'm getting that 2nd volume solely for completion purposes. Unfortunately, I'm not looking forward to purchasing (or my attempt at reading) it.
Thankfully, I read FLCL first, because it made this next one that much more enjoyable.
- Welcome to the N.H.K.: That's right, somewhere on my MASSIVE catch-up blog post was a list of manga titles I was considering on purchasing; now it's time to scratch off one of the names. I originally was considering purchasing this some time back, but the book wrapping over it and the 18+ rating left me to instead grab a safer title: LIFE (well, safer as in rating anyway). Since the 6th volume of LIFE doesn't come out for another month and a half, I have to rely on another touchy-subject manga in the meantime.
After going through FLCL, this was a BIG relief. Also, it's interesting just how psychotic the main character can get - I'm fucking tame in comparison. But other than his paranoid tendencies, his acquired "lolita complex" (thanks to his neighbor), and his questionable drug-use, Tatsuhiro Sato is basically a really REALLY extreme version of myself. Or at least that's what I'm understanding of him (there's still more volumes to be read). Honestly, his thought processes during the beginning of the first chapter when he meets the missionaries are VERY similar to what I would've thought in the same situation. Kick-ass (and quite pathetically sad as well). ^o^
Basically, I recommend Welcome to the N.H.K. and advise people to stay away from the manga version of FLCL.
That's all for now. Hopefully I can get the urge to do my Type C flood soon. If not, expect more useless posts like this one.
Till next time.
- siggy
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
A journey of self-discovery
Type A/E post, mostly Type E.
Before I start though, I should let you know that I WAS planning on posting the promised Type C flood today (now technically yesterday) since it was my birthday and all, but you know how lazy I can get. And lazyness combined with apathy got the better of me. ^^;;
But anyway, I JUST finished taking the "Belief-O-Matic" test over at Beliefnet.com, and I was QUITE surprised at the results to say the least.
For maximum amusement, I'm gonna list all of the 27 listed faiths in order of lowest percentage to highest percentage. Keep in mind that I'm a Roman Catholic by name (as mentioned in a previous post).
Ready? Here we go.
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27. Roman Catholic (16%) [Sig Note: This made me laugh so hard. "Roman Catholic by name" is an understatement apparently. XD]
26. Eastern Orthodox (16%)
25. Jehovah's Witness (22%) [Sig Note: The higher up you get from here, the more embarassing the Roman Catholic result is, considering the fact that our entire extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins, deceased grandparents, siblings both living and dead of said grandparents, etc.) was born and raised Roman Catholic.]
24. Islam (26%) [Sig Note: Every faith that makes the Roman Catholic result more embarassing will from now on will be represented by a "chink!". Currently at two chinks! - one from this and one from number 25.]
23. Seventh Day Adventist (28%)
22. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (29%)
21. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (34%) [Sig Note: Chink! C'mon, Mormons? >_>;]
20. Orthodox Judaism (35%) [Sig Note: Minor chink!]
19. Bahá'í Faith (41%)
18. Hinduism (45%) [Sig Note: Chink!]
17. Nontheist (47%) [Sig Note: AKA "Atheist, Agnostic" - also, CHINK!]
16. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (50%)
15. Jainism (50%)
14. Sikhism (51%)
13. Orthodox Quaker (58%) [Sig Note: Hahaha, QUAKER? Wow, that deserves an honorary minor chink! for that.]
12. Taoism (59%) [Sig Note: Hmm, I was expecting this to be higher up.]
11. Reform Judaism (61%) [Sig Note: Minor chink!]
10. Scientology (63%) [Sig Note: The fucking MOTHERLOAD of chinks! - this gave me quite a shock when I found out. Still, I wouldn't touch Scientology with a ten-foot pole.]
9. New Thought (63%)
8. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (75%) [Sig Note: Chink!, and only because of the fact that the conservative-leaning version of this got 22nd while this liberal one got 8th.]
7. Theravada Buddhism (78%)
6. Secular Humanism (79%)
5. Mahayana Buddhism (80%) [Sig Note: That's right, I got both Buddhism faiths on the top 10, and very close to each other. My family might see both Buddhism faiths here as chinks!, but I don't, so nyeh.]
4. Liberal Quakers (85%) [Sig Note: Big chink!, mostly from the combination of "liberal" and "Quaker" appearing so high up. Also, I need to start investigating on what the hell "conservative" and "liberal" mean so that I can finally find out what the hell I am (hoping for conservative since apparently "liberals = t3h 3v1l!!").]
3. New Age (94%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (95%)
1. Neo-Pagan (100%) [Sig Note: My reaction to this? "WHAT??!!" Honestly, Neo-Pagan? Um, I'm not much into rituals thank-you-very-much. Although it's not actually as bad as the name implies since it's more of a family of faiths than anything. Sure, Wiccan is there - but so is neo-Native American. Neo-Pagan is apparently "an umbrella term for various and diverse beliefs with many elements in common" according to Beliefnet. Okay, I can dig. Still, I'm giving this a big chink! since no one ever listens to my explanations anyway and since I'm supposed to be Catholic.]
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After looking at the top three's individual descriptions, I actually prefer Unitarian Universalism over Neo-Pagan. Rituals are scary.
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I just looked up both Conservatism and Liberalism on Wikipedia (looked up Progressivism as well out of curiosity). From what I've learned, I'm taking back number 8's chink! and downgrading number 4 to a minor chink! - apparently I'm a liberal, and the common view of liberalism is DEAD WRONG. You can thank the conservatives for that. [Sig Edit: Correction: you can thank both George W. Bush AND George H.W. Bush for that. I apologize to the "sane conservatives" on that one. ^^;;]
So basically I'm a Liberal Unitarian Universalist raised as a Catholic. How odd.
I'm still a Catholic by name though. HEY EVERYBODY - I'M CATHOLIC, OKAY? >_>
I'm glad I had this conversation with all one of you. It's taken me two hours to make this post, so 'till next time! ^o^
- siggy
Before I start though, I should let you know that I WAS planning on posting the promised Type C flood today (now technically yesterday) since it was my birthday and all, but you know how lazy I can get. And lazyness combined with apathy got the better of me. ^^;;
But anyway, I JUST finished taking the "Belief-O-Matic" test over at Beliefnet.com, and I was QUITE surprised at the results to say the least.
For maximum amusement, I'm gonna list all of the 27 listed faiths in order of lowest percentage to highest percentage. Keep in mind that I'm a Roman Catholic by name (as mentioned in a previous post).
Ready? Here we go.
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27. Roman Catholic (16%) [Sig Note: This made me laugh so hard. "Roman Catholic by name" is an understatement apparently. XD]
26. Eastern Orthodox (16%)
25. Jehovah's Witness (22%) [Sig Note: The higher up you get from here, the more embarassing the Roman Catholic result is, considering the fact that our entire extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins, deceased grandparents, siblings both living and dead of said grandparents, etc.) was born and raised Roman Catholic.]
24. Islam (26%) [Sig Note: Every faith that makes the Roman Catholic result more embarassing will from now on will be represented by a "chink!". Currently at two chinks! - one from this and one from number 25.]
23. Seventh Day Adventist (28%)
22. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (29%)
21. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (34%) [Sig Note: Chink! C'mon, Mormons? >_>;]
20. Orthodox Judaism (35%) [Sig Note: Minor chink!]
19. Bahá'í Faith (41%)
18. Hinduism (45%) [Sig Note: Chink!]
17. Nontheist (47%) [Sig Note: AKA "Atheist, Agnostic" - also, CHINK!]
16. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (50%)
15. Jainism (50%)
14. Sikhism (51%)
13. Orthodox Quaker (58%) [Sig Note: Hahaha, QUAKER? Wow, that deserves an honorary minor chink! for that.]
12. Taoism (59%) [Sig Note: Hmm, I was expecting this to be higher up.]
11. Reform Judaism (61%) [Sig Note: Minor chink!]
10. Scientology (63%) [Sig Note: The fucking MOTHERLOAD of chinks! - this gave me quite a shock when I found out. Still, I wouldn't touch Scientology with a ten-foot pole.]
9. New Thought (63%)
8. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (75%) [Sig Note: Chink!, and only because of the fact that the conservative-leaning version of this got 22nd while this liberal one got 8th.]
7. Theravada Buddhism (78%)
6. Secular Humanism (79%)
5. Mahayana Buddhism (80%) [Sig Note: That's right, I got both Buddhism faiths on the top 10, and very close to each other. My family might see both Buddhism faiths here as chinks!, but I don't, so nyeh.]
4. Liberal Quakers (85%) [Sig Note: Big chink!, mostly from the combination of "liberal" and "Quaker" appearing so high up. Also, I need to start investigating on what the hell "conservative" and "liberal" mean so that I can finally find out what the hell I am (hoping for conservative since apparently "liberals = t3h 3v1l!!").]
3. New Age (94%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (95%)
1. Neo-Pagan (100%) [Sig Note: My reaction to this? "WHAT??!!" Honestly, Neo-Pagan? Um, I'm not much into rituals thank-you-very-much. Although it's not actually as bad as the name implies since it's more of a family of faiths than anything. Sure, Wiccan is there - but so is neo-Native American. Neo-Pagan is apparently "an umbrella term for various and diverse beliefs with many elements in common" according to Beliefnet. Okay, I can dig. Still, I'm giving this a big chink! since no one ever listens to my explanations anyway and since I'm supposed to be Catholic.]
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After looking at the top three's individual descriptions, I actually prefer Unitarian Universalism over Neo-Pagan. Rituals are scary.
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I just looked up both Conservatism and Liberalism on Wikipedia (looked up Progressivism as well out of curiosity). From what I've learned, I'm taking back number 8's chink! and downgrading number 4 to a minor chink! - apparently I'm a liberal, and the common view of liberalism is DEAD WRONG. You can thank the conservatives for that. [Sig Edit: Correction: you can thank both George W. Bush AND George H.W. Bush for that. I apologize to the "sane conservatives" on that one. ^^;;]
So basically I'm a Liberal Unitarian Universalist raised as a Catholic. How odd.
I'm still a Catholic by name though. HEY EVERYBODY - I'M CATHOLIC, OKAY? >_>
I'm glad I had this conversation with all one of you. It's taken me two hours to make this post, so 'till next time! ^o^
- siggy
Sunday, July 22, 2007
If you didn't expect this kind of post, then you don't know me.
This post is either Type A, Type B, or both depending on how you look at it.
Read this Wikipedia article and this web page, then afterwards all one of you reading this should compare it to what you know about me.
See the similarities? If not, then it's probably expected since my only reader has never met me before in person, and therefore knows next to nothing about me.
So basically, I'm making this post as a reference. For who? Hell should I know - I'm bored.
- siggy
Read this Wikipedia article and this web page, then afterwards all one of you reading this should compare it to what you know about me.
See the similarities? If not, then it's probably expected since my only reader has never met me before in person, and therefore knows next to nothing about me.
So basically, I'm making this post as a reference. For who? Hell should I know - I'm bored.
- siggy
Saturday, July 14, 2007
The Fantastical Journey Through the No Internet Zone
Type A/B/C/D/E post. Yes, you read that right - it's the whole shebang.
The following is an "offline blog post collection" of sorts done in Notepad, chronicling the significant events between Friday, May 25 and Thursday, July 12 of 2007. This post is VERY very long, so if you want to read it all, set aside AT LEAST about a half-hour of your time, preferably an entire hour.
Still reading? Good. Now we begin...
[Sig Note: I'll be making Sig Notes like these after each entry either as explanations, as a place to put additional content, or just as commentary.]
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Day 1 - The end of an era
Friday, May 25, 2007 9:55-ish AM
As of a few minutes ago, I believe that I can confirm that I will no longer have access to my neighbor's wi-fi after about a year and a half of semi-continuous use. This means that it'll more than likely be months until I will be able to access the internet again.
While this may drastically hurt my computer time, I might be able to make use of the eventual boring air by finishing up a few simfiles I had already started in StepMania. This includes my Flowering Night simfile, my NaHaNaHa vs Gattchoon Battle simfile, my Never Die simfile, maybe my Gambol simfile (maybe), and I might even fix up my Ganymede simfile so that it's actually possible to do those last couple of measures. I'll also probably do more Spike Racers stuff like starting the much-needed bios, some more character development, some needed character creation for the later Spike Racers storyline (and maybe even for the early SR storyline), MAYBE some Spike designs (doubtful though), and if things get REALLY desparate in the "no-internet zone", I might even try to learn how to draw. :O
Hell, and if I do learn enough drawing skills I'll be able to finally draw some of my more developed character designs like Magna Gin, Mindy Massa, maybe Grim Targus and Nice Haanstrasser, and I might even get enough confidence to finally draw the one - the only - ______ ______. ______ will be fucking HARD to get right though, so that in itself will probably take a few months to finally nail down.
[Sig Note: I censored that last name because I'm not quite ready to reveal that character's name just yet. Once I do end up revealing that character, I'll uncensor this.]
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Day 4 (Monday was Day 1 again) - Thought Purge #1
Thursday, May 31, 2007 8:33 PM
Had access from mid Sunday afternoon until I turned on my computer again early Monday afternoon. Haven't had access since.
This is really starting to take its toll, psychologically speaking. For only the second time in my life, I took my computer out to our back porch in order to get a connection (desparation does that). Sadly, there is none (like the first time way back when). However, unlike the first time, I decided to stay here on the porch table (thank goodness my mom cleaned it a few days ago - it's usually a dirty mess since no one ever uses it).
Now, I know that I've been a psychological mess these past months, but I fear that it's only getting gradually worse as time passes. Nothing's helping, either - my music is starting to get annoying and my only commonly-seen friend is back from Mexico and now he's working during most of my waking hours every day although even if he wasn't there's still no way I'd ever tell him of these writings of mine (he has absolutely NO idea about the contents of any of my blogs or anything that any of my blogs ever mention). I almost did once - when asked about how things had been and after I said the customary response ("nothing really"), I started mentioning how there were "other little things that really aren't that important anyway" - he wanted to know what it was over the phone, but I mentioned that it really wasn't the right time to talk about it (it was the first time he had called me since he came back). Thankfully, he's probably forgotten about it by now because we've seen and talked to each other various times since then and he hasn't mentioned anything about it. Besides, I told him where to find my blogs and that he should read them - and since he hates reading much less reading THAT MUCH, I have confidence that he'll never read them. Which means that he'll probably never know a THING about how I'm slowly going insane for possibly the third time in like a few months time - unless I personally tell him of course (which'll probably never happen by the looks of things).
Why do I keep typing, honestly? It's not like this is helping - it's not. It's not like someone's gonna look at these words and sentences and go "this person is suffering and he needs help" - honestly, who the fuck would do something like that?
Ever since I can remember, I've always been my own counselor for EVERYTHING. Remember those "suicidal outbursts" in seventh grade I write about so much? One day I got sent to the school officer's office for that. My mom got word of it, and after a stern talking-to from the officer, the school translator, and my mom, my so-called "talks of suicide" were finally put to rest and I was suddenly supposed to be better. Years later, I researched some stuff about clinical depression and the like, and I find out that when people have sucidal thoughts, they supposedly have to go through some kind of "therapy" or some shit like that. I personally found this new information rather amusing - I have NEVER gone through any sort of counseling or psychological therapy or any shit like that IN MY LIFE. Not even when I had my "suicidal outbursts". Hell, I never even had much friend support much less professional counseling. All of my personal problems that I've ever had I've dealt with myself, without any help whatsoever. And as much as I'd like to change that, it's more than likely gonna stay like that for the rest of my life. Why? Mostly because I find it hard to trust my own self, much less my friends and family, much less my friends and family to the point where I can tell them about my problems face-to-face. And I blame that on my school experiences. No matter how hard I tried, I was always a loner at school - that meant that I never had those friendly conversations and I never "hanged out". Later on I would get bullied and stuff - and after some time it got to the point where every time someone came up to me, I would receive some small emotional abuse and I would end up heavily embarrased (especially during seventh grade). By seventh grade however, it was to the point where every time someone opened their mouth at my direction, it was for more "emotionally abusive" statements or questions. This became so commonplace that I would eventually expect that every time I was approached by a non-friend, it was for more "emotional abuse". Every time.
Fast-forward to now. I see somewhere (on TV I think) that the teenage years are supposed to be the happiest times of our lives. My "teenage years" will officially end in less than two months, and I have to say that it's been pure hell. Some people would love to revisit their high-school years - I'd rather kill myself than relive those hellish three years again (thanks to the junior high system it was only three years - another one would've probably killed me - literally).
[Sig Note: Actually, now it's ten days away. My b-day I mean.]
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Day 5 - Finishing the Purge
Friday, June 1, 2007 12:19 PM
Okay, so it apparently ended abruptly. That's because it was almost 10:30 and the gnats were starting to gather near my computer screen, so I said "to hell with this" and went inside. I would've finished it afterwards, but I forgot about it. ^^;;
Still no connection. Pisses me off.
I forgot to mention on the purge itself how I was researching on stuff about clinical depression and I stumbled upon the warning signs. Supposedly, a doctor (or someone similar) should be seen if you've been feeling depressed for over two weeks. I thought "TWO WEEKS? HAH! Wusses." It was pretty amusing, really.
[Sig Note: I fucking hate gnats. With a passion.]
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Day 6 - Slight advances
Saturday, June 2, 2007 10:46 PM
Well, thanks to the sheer boredom this "no internet zone" thing has been causing me, I was able to almost complete my Flowering Night simfile that I mentioned earlier. It's fairly easy to make, since the song allows me to copy-paste a couple of note sections various times throughout the entire step chart. Since it's a gamerip and the song therefore repeats once, I was able to copy the entire first half of the song's step chart (minus a small unfinished section at the end) and paste the notes after the section that needs work. All that's left is to finish stepping the unfinished section and copy-paste it to the end of the step chart. Then I'm done - yay! ^o^
Heh, what a coincidence. Flowering Night just came up on my iPod's shuffled playlist. :D
And I just repeated it. ^^;;
Anyway, I also decided to re-export my two songs (and their "Bemani Cut" counterparts) into WAV files. Once I did (various times because ModPlug Tracker didn't export them correctly and because I kept making various volume adjustments to that damn piano), I loaded Sound Recorder and tried further bumping up the volume. That's when I found my previous problem's source: it wasn't ModPlug Tracker's fault (as I had thought) - it was Sound Recorder's fault. With enough volume bumps (four I determined), the quality of the song ends up like shit.
I'm probably gonna have to finally install Audacity now and see if I can bump up the song volume with that program (maybe - after all, it's supposed to be really popular with podcasters - or at least that's what the Wikipedia article said).
[Sig Note: Currently, Audacity is just sitting there on my computer's desktop. You'll find out why later on.]
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Day 9 - Random talk
Tuesday, June 5, 2007 8:04 PM
I'm starting to listen to songs on iTunes that I haven't heard in next to forever now. Currently at Led Zeppelin.
Heh, how interesting. Since the window of my room is open, I can actually hear the rain outside. Well, sorta - I'm also listening to Led Zeppelin's "Since I've Been Loving You" right now. What an interesting combination.
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Still raining, but now "Stairway to Heaven" has just started. Wow, now THIS is ambience.
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As you can see, I don't know what to write. At all. "No Quarter" isn't helping things, either (nor is it hindering things though, so I'm keeping it on play).
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Wow, is it just me, or is it raining a bit harder right now? O_o
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Ah yes, "Achilles Last Stand" just came on. In the original video game version of Spike Racers, there was a track built around this song. The supposed "Spiketradamus" track (tentatively named of course, although it wasn't always a tentative name sadly) was a three-lap course with lap times of about 3 minutes each. The goal was to beat the competing mega-sized machine (the pilot of which I would eventually name "Goliath" Samuelsson), which would finish the three laps in about 9 1/2 minutes time. Would it have been awesome? For a futuristic racing game it most certainly would've been original (almost every track of the early video-game era was completely tube-based, allowing for multiple directions in races and "upward hairpin turns") since Goliath's machine (named "Boss" of course) was supposedly about half the diameter of the track itself and was (and still will be) about three to four times the size of an average Spike Racing machine (regular "season-acceptable" machines average in length about the length of the trailer section of a semi-truck and diameters are usually over twice the width of a semi-truck).
[Sig Note: Next time it's raining hard outside, start playing Led Zeppelin's "Since I've Been Loving You" and after that "Stairway to Heaven" - TRUST ME on this one: it kicks ASS.]
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Day 10 - Finishing it up
Wednesday, June 6, 2007 1:06 AM
Continuing from the above: would it have been awesome? HELLS YES. Racing games have never had that sort of originality - EVER. Nor will racing games EVER have that originality sadly. Downward turns? Racing against a machine three to four times your machine's size? A speed limit that's determined not by the machine's power, but by your own abilities as a pilot? A fairly-used brake button? How many racing games IN EXISTENCE can brag about having a track with multiple turns that are neither left nor right turns? None that I'm aware of.
Sadly though, the Spike Racers video game era officially ended almost a year ago. Now, although I would LOVE for Spike Racers to start out as a full-fledged animation complete with an official soundtrack (done by the great VH Nox), voice actors/actresses (professional-sounding amateurs of course, more than likely friends of friends of friends), and even commercials (yes, you read that right), more than likely Spike Racers will end up as a multi-page webcomic. Every week (going for Sundays because webcomics and even most other sites never update on Sundays), a new 20-30something page "episode" would be posted online. I would probably do the episodes many months (or even a year or so) in advance and start posting them when I'm almost done with the entire next "season" or even later. In other words, by the time you're almost finished seeing Spike Racers 1, I should be in the middle of making Spike Racers 3 AT LEAST.
What are my chances of learning how to draw? Extremely slim. I struggle with pencils when I'm WRITING - now DRAWING? I don't think I'm fully aware of how badly I'm gonna feel after I attempt (and fail) to learn how to draw for the billionth time, this time using "The Complete Idiot's Guide to Drawing" as a teacher (which I have yet to purchase but I will soon). My chances of learning how to draw are about as good as the chances of a parrot learning Japanese as a second language. Basically, somewhere along the lines of "I'll be damned if that ever happens, but wouldn't it be cool as hell if it did?"
2:30 in the morning. I better go to sleep before my dad wakes up. The only good thing about this "no internet zone" thing is that my computer is at my room now where it belongs. After having it in the kitchen for months at a time (literally - good thing there's an outlet right next to the dining table), having it in my room is much nicer. Too bad that if I get a connection again I'll eventually have this computer in the kitchen 24/7 once more. "Get your own connection" you say? We can't. We can't afford it.
My dad just coughed - not good. Gotta go - see ya. *hears snoring* Whew, false alarm. Still, I gotta go. 2:37 AM and I'm bored anyway.
Night. ^_^
[Sig Note: Now that I think about it, if I do a booklet-style webcomic, I could do some fake advertisements or something. It'd be quite entertaining to say the least. :P]
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Day 17 - An interesting discovery
Wednesday, June 13, 2007 2:28 AM
I was just looking through some old text files of my Spike Racers video game-era development, and I came across some amusing stuff involving "Spiketradamus". Let's look through and update this, shall we?
"The Olympus Mons Invitational, held every year a few weeks after the official end of the season, is known as the most grueling and dangerous race of all time."
No longer true - that honor goes to the "Obelisk Pair" tracks. Held once as the 12th season opening race location, its winner was forced to immediately retire after prolonged exposure to high g-forces (he was going around Mach 11 or so, but thanks to the machine's g-force limiters he wasn't killed - although now he can't race anymore due to chronic injuries). But anyway...
"Most of the danger is credited to the host of the race and main attraction: "Goliath" Samuelsson and his colossal machine known as Boss."
Still true, although there's also the fact that it's the third-longest official Spike Racing track currently built, with lap times averaging just over three minutes each. At three laps, it makes for a very grueling race.
"The largest fully-functional terrestrial race machine in the known galaxy, it is also the largest known double-turbine engine in existence - over sixty feet in diameter at its widest, and almost half a football field in length."
That first part was amusing. "Double-turbine engine" you say? XD
That second part though was what caught my attention...
"...over sixty feet in diameter at its widest, and almost half a football field in length."
Holy SHIT that's big.
I was actually considering keeping the measurements, since they sounded right. But after looking at an old "scale-drawing" of some machines with Boss at the background, I'm not so sure.
But now that I look at the drawing more closely, it sure as hell ain't "to-scale" to begin with. However, based on the closest-to-scale machines with Boss, I have guesstimated Boss to be over 70ish feet in diameter at its widest, and somewhere around 115ish feet in length. I have also guesstimated regular machines to average somewhere around 12-20ish feet in diameter and range anywhere from 12ish to 40ish feet in length depending on the machine's design.
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Holy bloody crapshit that's fucking HUGE. 70-foot diameter and 115-foot length? Ish? Damn that's big. And the regular machines are nothing to sneeze at, either.
Now think of the power. These machines race at an average of just over Mach 1.5 - and very fast races average about just under Mach 2.
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You know what? Screw Podraces and the F-Zero races - Spike Racing kicks ass.
Nyeh.
[Sig Note: That goes double for Wipeout's multiple racing leagues. CONSISTENCY, PEOPLE!]
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Day 18 - Technical Difficulties
Thursday, June 14, 2007 10:24 PM
Oh good holy hell - NOW I remember why I fucking hate encoding with LAME. >:(
Okay, here's the jist - my attempts at boosting up the volume of my songs are in vain. I FINALLY installed Audacity, but ANY VOLUME BOOST WHATSOEVER would apparently shoot the quality of the songs down the drain. So I decided to encode them to mp3 as-is. Unfortunately, a couple of minutes ago I remembered why I was encoding everything with iTunes in the first place - LAME SUCKS BALLS. My songs encoded with LAME sound MUCH much worse than if I had solely boosted the volume with Sound Recorder and left them as WAV files.
I'm extremely pissed off right now because I was THIS close to finishing up the songs. I had ID3 tags and everything. Then I put them on Winamp and THE QUALITY WAS PURE SHIT.
Lesson for today: ALWAYS encode your WAV files to mp3s using iTunes. Encoding WAV files to mp3 with LAME is like beating the files with a bat Office Space style. Popular, yes - but NOT RECOMMENDED.
That is hopefully all. Hopefully.
[Sig Note: So in the end, Audacity was worthless for what I wanted it for. If I ever make an A-Log in the future though, I'll be using Audacity instead of Sound Recorder.]
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Day 19 - Inspiration Strikes!
Friday, June 15, 2007 12:39 PM
Last night at around 2:00 AM or so a song idea suddenly popped into my head. I was still on my 'puter at the time, and I wasn't doing much anything anyway, so I decided to open up ModPlug Tracker and put the song idea down. Unfortunately, I was struggling with the melody which had since faded into the nether reaches of my noggin. After switching from sample to sample and readjusting note after note, I finally came to three conclusions.
1: I need better samples.
2: Had I known how to play the guitar, none of these shenanigans would've ever happened.
3: The melody was gonna suck no matter what I did to it.
So I did the logical thing and sent the song to the way of the Daft Punk: I took out the ENTIRE melody that it had (all half a "pattern") and started working on the basic groove making occasional variations along the way. Earlier today I finished it and somehow it ended up being my longest song to date (which is nice).
So now I have Piano Electronica, Piano Electronica (IIDX Cut), Drum n' Bass n' Piano, Drum n' Bass n' Piano (DDR Cut), and this new one which I'll reveal the name of when I post my Type C flood once I'm back online.
Trust me - this song surprisingly kicks ass. It's what people would call a "head-bopper" (or something like that).
BTW, iTunes ended up chopping the quality of my other four files when converting to mp3. I'm too lazy to figure out why, so I'll just leave 'em like that. ID3 tags have been made for all five files, and the songs are now ready for distribution! Yay! ^o^
Now all I need is internet access.
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*sigh* I miss having internet access.
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Him.
On the roof.
With the groove.
On the house that we built.
[Sig Note: I give no hints. Sorry.]
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Day 24 - Acquiring the means w/included phobic tendencies
Wednesday, June 20, 2007 2:52 PM
I need to make a correction. The title of the book wasn't "The Complete Idiot's Guide to Drawing", it was "Drawing for Dummies" - and it was 20 bucks (I had set aside 30, so that was very lucky of me). Still, there IS a copy of "The Complete Idiot's Guide to Drawing Basics" at B&N (also 20 bucks) so if this book fails, I can always try that one as a (very) last resort before giving up drawing and therefore Spike Racers development completely.
This whole "drawing" business is starting to be a phobia of sorts. Seriously, I've been trying to work myself to start learning how to draw all day (all two and a half hours of it so far). I really can't bring myself to touch one of my pencils that are literally right next to this laptop, and it's starting to bother me immensely.
I need to figure out a way to overcome this immense fear that has very suddenly overcome me. If I don't, then Spike Racers will be trashed (along with the 8+ years of on-off work that makes it a potential masterpiece) along with my 2nd story (currently on indefinite hold until my drawing skills are good enough to pull it off) tentavely titled "Legacy" with a history that greatly rivals Spike Racers in development length, overall epicness, and story/character complexity (my current passion is with Spike Racers though, since it's much less strange than Legacy).
This would also shatter my plans of a third story with a development history of about a couple of months (during which the final title and basic premise have been decided on - and that's it).
[Sig Note: It would also shatter my plans of a fourth story, with a development history of about a few days now and a basic concept history of a few years. Even sadder? It's an animated sitcom (minus the "animated" part of course, although after three stories that could change).]
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Day 25 - The reappearance of apathy
Thursday, June 21, 2007 10:33 AM
As you can see, I didn't finish my last entry. That's because, well, I just didn't feel like finishing it. I could say that I got distracted, or that I ran out of things to say, or that I couldn't find the right way to say what I had to say. And while those are true to an extent, the main reason why I didn't finish is because I ... just didn't feel like it.
I don't know why I got up early today (8:30-ish). I went to sleep at around 2:30-ish I think, so that's almost six hours of total sleep for me. Am I tired? Yeah. But I don't feel like going back to bed. Dunno why.
[Sig Note: This entry speaks for itself. These "Sig Notes" are tiring to write.]
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Day 25 - The limitations of LEGO
Thursday, June 21, 2007 8:15 PM
Okay, so after my second hour-long attempt of trying to make a LEGO model of a Spike Racers machine (through LEGO Digital Designer, downloadable from the official site), I think I can conclude that LEGO bricks are NOT suitable for making Spike models. What a shame. :(
Now, I shall turn to K'NEX. All I need to do is GET A FRIGGIN INTERNET CONNECTION! GAH!!
T_T
[Sig Note: K'NEX looks promising - 400-piece K'NEX tubs apparently cost 20 bucks at Target.]
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Day 26 - Quick recommendation
Friday, June 22, 2007 1:36 AM
Okay, so I WAS gonna do a manga review, but sadly I don't know how to without ruining the story.
So I'll just say this: buy all five current volumes of LIFE. Now.
Created by Keiko Suenobu (I didn't recognize the name either) and published by Tokyopop (that way you know what to look for), this is by far my absolute favorite manga series that I have ever come across (and I count Megatokyo in this even though it's not really a "manga" series). Now, for those of you who aren't into the drama genre and/or are big action-fan thugs (figuratively and literally speaking), STAY AWAY FROM THIS. The plot is about as emotional as the visual novel media would probably allow. "Holy SHIT that's emotional" -type stuff.
Okay, so I'm horrible at my word choices. But still, this is one hell of a series that touches on a subject that I really wish more series would touch on. I need more manga series like this one (anime is fine, too). Now.
And I need a quicker release schedule of volumes of LIFE. Volume 6 comes out I think in mid-September (I can't check though for OBVIOUS REASONS), and I really don't think I can wait for that long. Three months? Damn you, Tokyopop.
So before I make even less sense, here's the synopsis of LIFE Volume 1 taken from the inside back cover. *looks at length of synopsis* ...Holy hell that's a lot of typing. Damn you again, Tokyopop.
"Ayumu Shiiba is studying for the all-important high school entrance exams. She is struggling to get by, but thankfully has help from her best friend Shii-chan, who is at the top of their class. But when the test results come back, their friendship falls apart - Ayumu surpasses Shii-chan's scores and gets into her high school of choice while Shii-chan doesn't!
Losing Shii-chan is so painful for Ayumu that she starts cutting her wrists for comfort. Hoping for a fresh start, Ayumu arrives at her new high school and finally opens up to a new friend, Manami. But will Manami prove to be the friend that Ayumu truly needs or send her further in a downward spiral?"
I just saw something on the ad pages on the back: "Read the entire first chapter online for free: www.tokyopop.com/life"; personally, I recommend doing so. Almost 100 pages, and it's absolutely perfect as a stand-alone chapter. You can't get introduced to the story better than that without having to pay a cent.
Now, the books are 10 bucks each, so if the first chapter seems interesting, grab 50 bucks and buy all five current books. TRUST ME - it's well worth it. Take it from someone who's fairly cautious on what manga series to start buying. Hell, here's a list of manga series that I'm considering on buying for the first time.
- Neon Genesis Evangelion (that's if I can find the FIRST FRIGGIN VOLUME!)
- Welcome to the NHK (the only thing that stopped me from buying this instead of LIFE Volume 1 was the 18+ rating)
- Ranma 1/2 (I honestly have no idea why, and I don't think I have the bookshelf space to accomodate the entire series)
- Fruits Basket (shut up - I still need to find out more about it through Wikipedia before I come to a conclusion)
- Bleach (recommended to me by a friend, but I'm kinda hesitant now after doing some research a while back)
- BECK: Mongolian Chop Squad (doubt it though, but not completely ruled out just yet)
- Dragonball (this would be too cliche though, which is why I got Dr. Slump - but sadly, I'm still considering this)
- Cromartie High School (Protoculture Addicts previewed this in the current issue #91, and I liked it enough to look for it)
All of them except Cromartie High School I've been considering on buying for about a few months now, maybe even close to half a year. Naruto was also on this list, but my love for the anime and the lack of other titles to find at B&N forced me to succumb to the temptation. Naruto is basically a "meanwhile I get the other titles" series for me, although I can't seem to find Volume 9 for some odd reason. If on my next trip to B&N I don't find a series-continuation volume for my collection, I'm probably gonna start looking for the first volume of Cromartie High School.
[Sig Note: YOU MOTHERFUCKING SONUVA BITCH - TOKYOPOP JUST HAD TO DO A COMPLETE SITE REDESIGN - WELL, YOU CAN KISS YOUR "FREE PREVIEW" GOODBYE BECAUSE THE PEOPLE AT TOKYOPOP ARE COMPLETE BASTARDS! GAH!!!]
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Day 26 - Not-so-quick finisher
Friday, June 22, 2007 2:03 PM
Ugh, just woke up. Last night my dad woke up so I bailed from the 'puter IMMEDIATELY. Hence the unfinished entry.
Anyway, in short: go to the website I posted and read that first chapter (just under 100 pages). If you like it (and you probably will if you're not an action thug and/or you don't mind the drama genre), then grab 50 bucks plus the respective sales tax (if there IS a sales tax where you are) and BUY ALL FIVE CURRENT VOLUMES! NOW!
And yes, I really don't know how my "quick recommendation" got that fucking long. I guess it's proof of how I need to stop rambling.
Hell, I ramble all the fucking time if given the chance. E-mail, PMs, comments, blog posts, even vocally if I'm not too nervous to talk (and sometimes even when I'm nervous). It's starting to annoy the fuck out of me and probably everyone else as well. Seriously, I need to stop ta*THWACK* *thud*
[Sig Note: You know what? Go to The Pirate Bay and look for the first volume there. Tokyopop pissed me the fuck off. Just remember to look for "Keiko Suenobu" if it gets too hard to find.]
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Day 27 - Proof of insanity
Saturday, June 23, 2007 3:53 PM
I made this in Notepad a few days ago. [Sig Note: Looks better with Arial font.]
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It kinda looks like a flag, doesn't it? If it doesn't, turn your head 90 degrees.
Now I just need to copy this to Paint, fix it up, and give it color. [Sig Note: Already done - scroll down to the very end of this post to see the kick-ass results.]
Just give me a few weeks - I kinda don't feel like doing it right now.
BTW, all "that's what she said" comments will be replied to by e-mail with a large image of Tubgirl. I'm not fucking kidding, either. Hell, I'm actually WILLING to Google Image Search a big-enough Tubgirl image for punishment purposes.
Hell, I might look for one just in case.
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Okay, I think the above sentence was proof of my insanity. You know I've missed having internet access when I'm actually WILLING to look for a large image of Tubgirl. Good holy HELL I've officially gone off the deep-end.
In a COMPLETELY unrelated note, Happy Birthday to one of my friends whom I will not name but you know who you are (even if you'll probably never read this). No, I didn't forget - but having no internet access prevents me from letting you know on the actual day. ^_^;;
BTW, the "text flag" above is best seen with "Arial" font - "Times New Roman" does NOT do it justice. Nor does any other font, sadly.
[Sig Note: That includes this Georgia font that Blogger uses.]
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Day 28 - Keeping track of the "zone"
Sunday, June 24, 2007 7:42 PM
I just added the day numbers next to the entry titles. That way, I know exactly how long I've been deprived of internet access.
Interesting note: not only has it been exactly one month (31 days since May 24) since I was first introduced to the "no internet zone" (although I didn't realize until the next morning that it wasn't my computer's fault), it's also exactly one month until my b-day. The day after tomorrow will be the "30 days straight" mark of having no internet access (which is what I'm keeping track of here), and I'm becoming quite psychotic from the sheer boredom this is causing. Combine that with an immense apathy caused by my semi-depressed mood, and I'm just hoping that John gets here very soon to shake things up a bit.
It's almost always EXTREMELY SLOW here at my house during this time of night (unless it's Monday or Friday because that's when wrestling is on), and that slowness is usually solved with some internet surfing. However, since there's no internet, I've been doing various other things during this time of day like writing these entries, listening to music, wandering around the contents of my hard drives, playing Soul Calibur II (which I'll probably do in a bit), watching TV knowing that nothing is on (no longer an extreme rarity thanks to the "no internet zone"), reading one of my manga books for the umpteenth time (which I do sparingly) or a magazine (usually EGM, but lately Protoculture Addicts has become interesting as well), or just lie down on the (carpeted) floor of my room with either my computer, my iPod, some reading material, or sometimes with nothing at all (except for the clothes on me you fucking pervs), and eventually I'll just fall asleep from sheer boredom. It happens regularly, too.
I need to go downstairs though and fix my VCR so that I can program it to record a show tomorrow. After that I'll probably stay down there and play SC2 with music playing from my iPod (thanks to the headphone-to-RCA cable I have). Or something.
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This shit is boring. And I have an image to represent that which I'll post a link to with this entry once I'm online.
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BTW, the underscore lines that I do in order to divide each entry all consist of 23 underscores. Every single one of them. Check for yourself if you don't believe me.
[Sig Note: The image in question. And the underscore fact isn't limited to this post - go check my MySpace blog posts and look for any underscore lines. All of them are 23-underscore lines. All of them. I think...]
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Day 30 - One month of 'net deprivation makes Sig Nuka something something
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 5:02 PM
Today is the 30-day-straight mark of having no internet access. And as usual, I'm feeling quite psychotic right now.
Gyrkryckyt. Grr-CRICK-it.
I just made that word up as I was figuring out what to type after "quite psychotic right now."
I like that word. Gyrkryckyt.
Gyrkryckyt. Gyrkryckyt. Gyrkryckyt.
GYRKRYCKYT MOTHERFUCKER, GYRKRYCKYT!
GyaaNyaaNyaaaaaa, I'm going insane in the membrane (insane in the brain - pwiooiooi).
Insane in the membrane (IT'S INSANE - GOT NO BRAIN).
"Nay, I find thee quite unpleasing" - from first Unsorted Shit (forgot which day, prolly 2nd)
Nyaka-Nya. Nyaka-Nya! NYAKA-NYA! (this was inspired by Mr. Pregnant's "Shnacker Shnaw" - look it up on YouTube or something)
GYRKRYCKYT MOTHERFUCKER!
"Is Wayne Brady gonna hafta choke a bitch?" - Wayne Brady, from an episode of Chapelle's Show
"Byaaa!" - Dave Chapelle as Howard Dean from another episode of Chapelle's Show
Toko-toko-toko-toko-TAN (toko-toko-TAN). Toko-toko-toko-toko-TA-GRYPLIPLIBLABLABLATHOOOOOM!
BOOSH!
Kakakakakakaka-OH GOOD GOD NOT IN THE HOUSE!
Fwoosh.
Can I stop now?
NOT UNTIL THE FAT LADY SINGS!
What fat lady?
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Oh okay fine - you can stop now.
WOO! *thud*
[Sig Note: This entry was kinda fun to make. Proof of my insanity? Plenty.]
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Day 31 - Subconcious obsession?
Wednesday, June 27, 2007 1:32 PM
I can't believe I'm actually gonna type this.
Not even an hour ago, I had another one of "those" dreams.
Now, it's not a recurring SPECIFIC dream mind you (would be nice to have one of those), but rather a recurring setting/theme or some shit like that. Specifically, it's a school setting and a specific person always happens to be there (I won't say who - too ... embarrassing). Always.
Just under an hour ago, I had another one of those dreams again. School setting, and that person was there - practically right next to me.
Ah yes - instant ramen noodles. Always the perfect breakfast (technically lunch, but it's breakfast to me). I'd love to have REAL ramen noodles some day. But I digress.
The dream itself wasn't anything special, although apparently my 6'1/2" stature is considered tall (I was gonna compare height with some other student and I told recurring person to stand up also - apparently "other student" ended up being just an inch shorter than "recurring person" and I just towered over the two just like real life would say).
Mmm, now THAT'S good instant ramen.
Anyway, the actual dream wasn't special. However, what bugs me the most is the appearance of "recurring person". "Recurring person" has appeared in just about every single school-setting dream I've had over the past year or two (there are a couple of exceptions, but compared to the number of school-setting dreams I've had it's barely worth noting) and even in a couple of non-school related ones (I think ... maybe). "Recurring person" is currently the most likely recognizable person to appear in a dream of mine, with MY OWN BROTHER at a close second.
Obsession? Not a concious one. Honestly, on the concious level there's nothing even remotely close to an "obsession", and even the thought of it makes me chuckle.
What's starting to freak me out is the possibility of a sub-concious obsession. Why does this person appear in more dreams than my own brother does? Why?
WHY IN THE BLOODY HELL DOES THIS PERSON APPEAR IN MY DREAMS MORE TIMES THAN MY OWN FLESH AND BLOOD?! AUGH!!
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I don't like obsessions. There's no such thing as a "good" obsession or a "healthy" obsession.
I don't want to have an obsession. It ... it'd be like a drug addiction or something like that. People don't look at drug addicts with a good eye. Same thing with people who have an obsession with something. It's like if they had a drug addiction or something. And most of the time they've never even TOUCHED a drug - and yet they're treated just the same.
I hate being treated like a rot-covered tumbleweed. An obsession would only make it worse.
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Here I go, rambling on like an idiot again. I should stop here.
I just hope I don't ruin my life by typing this. I probably should've just kept my damn mouth shut.
[Sig Note: Only time will tell on how this entry affects me (and other people).]
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Day 33 - Psychotic nothings
Friday, June 29, 2007 5:21 PM
The nature of my life makes it extremely hard to write about. Nothing happens. Literally NOTHING happens. So the moment something ACTUALLY happens, I write about it.
Sadly, this entry is a false alarm, as nothing has happened. At all.
So the only persistently entertaining thing that I can do is release the gates of psychotic insanity and just go NUTS for absolutely no reason. My "Day 30" entry shows the results of my most recent "psychotic episode", so to speak.
Unfortunately, going batshit insane is starting to get kinda boring. Like everything else.
[Sig Note: Hahaha, I like the title of this entry: "Psychotic nothings". XD]
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Day 36 - [no name]
Monday, July 2, 2007 3:30 PM
[Sig Note: I couldn't think of a name for this entry, so I left it without one.]
Okay, this one's a two-parter.
First of all, yesterday night I got curious on something: how would a simfile of "garden" look like? How would it be done?
Now, I was asking myself this because garden switches between 3/4 and 5/4 timing. However, the original beatmania IIDX notechart lists the BPM as 220, which would probably take care of that problem.
So yesterday night I tested my theory out. As it turns out, the beginning of the song is kinda off-beat but otherwise I was right.
However, after continuing to make the simfile I got to the final part of the song (after putting some placeholder notes on the later half of the song) after which I learned something: HOLY FUCKING SHIT garden is hard as FUCK to make a simfile out of (well, the OST version of garden is hard - I bet the gamerip version is much easier).
So after eventually getting frustrated with garden, I decided to try finishing my Flowering Night simfile. Through fears of overstepping it just a tad (as I was trying to step the percussion since the actual piano was quiet as fuck), deciding to step a small empty section of an earlier part of the song, and praising the feature of copy-pasting notes (which I used extensively thanks to the song's nature), I FINALLY finished my Flowering Night simfile! Yay!
Just in case though, I'm gonna label this simfile as a WIP for feedback purposes. It's not done until I take care of the simfile's issues discovered by people who actually know what the fuck they're doing.
Now for part two.
Last night I had another dream involving "recurring person". The oddity this time was the fact that "recurring person" never visually appeared - for the entire dream I was actually talking to "recurring person" on the phone.
O_o
This dream marks the very first time that I ever talked to someone over the phone INSIDE THE FUCKING DREAM. Interestingly enough, it was a pretty enjoyable dream - a "stress-reliever" if you will. Still, the fact that I had a dream like this while apparently "recurring person" claimed to be perfectly fine despite my worries concerns me. I've heard of people who've had dreams of loved ones claiming to be absolutely fine then some time after waking up learning that those very loved ones were dead. The fact that I had a dream like this concerns me greatly about how this person is doing considering how things are in-
O_O
NO! HELL NO! I WILL NOT RISK REVEALING THE IDENTITY OF "RECURRING PERSON" - NOT TODAY!
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Um, okay - is it just me or am I starting to go insane again? Damn you, Stepmania. Damn you, um...
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...nope. Can't finish it.
Damn you, ambiguity. Damn you, low vocabulary. Damn you, repetitive damn you's. DAMN YOU, LACK OF TIME TO COME UP WITH A BETTER WAY TO END THIS ENTRY! DAMN YOU!
[Sig Note: I'm sorry, the explanation you have reached is no longer in service. Please check your excuses and try again.]
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Day 40 - Monotony, anyone?
Friday, July 6, 2007 6:03 PM
Well, I think it's official now - I have apparently run out of ways to entertain myself.
No new song ideas to butcher up with ModPlug Tracker or Anvil Studio.
No new/finished pathetic excuses of simfiles.
No significant progress with Spike Racers. Hell, no MINOR progress with Spike Racers.
No attempts at making another video for fear of fucking up my computer again - again.
Still haven't tried to learn how to draw. I think it's probably a phobia by now.
Going batshit crazy is starting to get old.
My music collection is getting repetitive. (this coming from someone who once had a song reach 50 plays in less than a week's time, and recently had another song reach 30 plays in about two days)
I apparently can't beat Metroid Prime 2 - damn you Dark Samus. So now I'm item-hunting. That gets boring QUICKLY.
Ugh, hold on - I gotta eat. >:(
[Sig Note: Yeah, because eating is SO overrated.]
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Day 40 - Still with the monotony (well, kinda)
Friday, July 6, 2007 11:02 PM
Just saw this, gonna finish it.
TV is - well - what it usually is. Tomorrow's Saturday so that means new Naruto.
BTW, I finally saw the second half of the second disc of the first Naruto Uncut Box Set I got some time ago. Fourth of July does that to you. [Sig Note: Actually, I finished it now. The second box set is gonna be hard as FUCK to find though.]
Anyway, besides three new songs I found on the 99.6% finished 16.5 GB "japanese doujin" song pack yesterday night [Sig Note: Correction: 99.8% - and it's done now.], most everything else on my tiny 4 gig iPod is starting to get repetitive. Sad too, 'cause it's full and I'm running out of songs to take out. Honestly, I need one of those 30 GB video iPods, just for size alone (I don't care about having videos on my iPod - I just need some friggin SPACE). I think the bulk of my laptop hard drive (a puny 40 gig) is music, since my music folder is like 8-9 gigs and I have like a couple of gigs of music stored on a separate folder (don't ask why - I just found a convenient download place and that place just grew and grew to mass proportions). All in all, I BELIEVE I have about 12 or so gigs of music on my laptop hard drive, which would make about a third of the entire hard drive. Add on the 16 or so gigs from the doujin pack (there's quite a bit of album art) and I think a 30 GB iPod would be perfect for me. ^_^
And for those of you who try to make the argument that I wouldn't listen to it all, I say "of course I won't probably listen to it all - but I'll more than likely listen to most of it considering who I am."
Of course, my current iPod will still see frequent use as a "favorite songs" iPod along with whatever I'm addicted to at the time. But when I want more variety (or if I want to explore the doujin pack some more), I can always go to my big one.
Besides, I'm still expecting much more music. I'm hoping for sometime in the near future to buy my very first import CD. I'm actually deciding between Akira Yamaoka's "iFUTURELIST" (mostly long versions of his kick-ass IIDX songs, although I think there's one or two Silent Hill tracks as well) and the "beatmania IIDX 14 GOLD OST" / dj TAKA's "Milestone" CD pack (80-something bucks, "Milestone" has long versions AND REMIXES of his IIDX songs, all in all 4 discs in total, DEFINITELY worth the money).
Sure, I could always just download the CDs, but for once I actually want to purchase PHYSICAL COPIES. Hells yeah, bitches. >:)
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Bah, I can't seem to end this correctly, so I'll just say this: I might be going to B&N tomorrow so expect some talk about what I got (and why) either tomorrow or Sunday. Yeah,
I'm talking to all the people who can actually read this - all one of me.
You hear me? YOU CAN'T IGNORE ME FOREVER!! Oh yes I can. Um, he wasn't talking to you, he was talking to him over there. Who, that wierd guy? Yeah. YOU LISTEN TO ME, LITTLE MAN - I AM NOT AFRAID TO TAKE YOU DOWN! That's what she said. Oh, stop it - you sound like an immature junior high-schooler. Mmm, that's a good peanut-butter sandwich - lightly-toasted bread, too. Guys, shut up - I can't concentrate on solving that Mighl Sonne dilemma that one girl brought up. HAY GUYS LOOK - THE SWITCH IS ON, AND N...
...OW IT'S ON. AND N...
...OW IT'S ON. AND N...
...OW IT'S ON. AND-
Dude, don't mess with that, that's the open-thought switch. That's how we got "Unsorted Shit" done so quickly. Turn it off, man.
SORRY.
[Sig Note: That last part was fun as hell to make. Use your imagination on that "on/off switch" bit. :D]
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Day 41 - Bitches don't know 'bout my lack of patience
Saturday, July 7, 2007 6:54 PM
Sometimes I wish there was another place in Twin that sold manga (Hastings doesn't count since their "selection" is so small it's pathetic).
Well, not only was there no Cromartie High School at B&N, but I was also only able to find Naruto Volume 9. Volume 10 was nowhere to be seen, and Dr. Slump Volume 7 still remains to be an exotic find only seen by online shoppers and people who actually bother to order it through the store. Since the last few times I tried to order something in the store I was forced to show a physical copy of a previous volume just so that they wouldn't have to try to decipher my infamous "mumble voice", and since I couldn't check beforehand online to see if copies of the books actually existed (which plagues the Lunar Legend Tsukihime series, of which I'm STILL missing the fourth volume for that reason), I decided against ordering anything so that I wouldn't have to spell letter-by-letter what I want to order just so that they tell me that there aren't any copies or that the site isn't returning any results while they ask me if I spelled it correctly only to learn that I said M, not N - afterwards telling me that the book isn't even out yet even though it CLEARLY STATES "2006", NOT "2007". "Oh I'm sorry, I was too busy looking at the month and day to realize that THE BOOK WAS RELEASED ALMOST A FUCKING YEAR AGO - THANKS FOR POINTING OUT WHERE IT SAID THE YEAR OF THE BOOK'S RELEASE THAT WAS LITERALLY RIGHT NEXT TO THE FUCKING DATE." "You know what? This is what I'm looking for." *points to title* "Um, but you already have that book." >_< NO SHIT SHERLOCK - BUT THIS IS WHAT PEOPLE CALL A "MANGA SERIES" - MAYBE I WANTED, oh I don't know, A DIFFERENT VOLUME??
Seriously, Twin Falls needs a good "otaku-friendly" store for once. I miss Sam Goody (that space in the mall is now occupied by two, maybe three boxes - and it's completely open/empty). And the other half of Best Buy's anime selection. And Hastings needs to expand their manga collection to anything more than the puny "third of a body-wide shelf" selection that they have (my description is VERY generous BTW - I don't think Hastings ACTUALLY has that large of a selection). Dude, that's not a selection - that's leftovers.
If I seem like a grumpy bitch to you, then I only hope you were thoroughly entertained by this entry. Go ahead. Laugh. Watching other people get extremely pissed off makes for great comedy, doesn't it? Hell, just look at MTV/VH1's shows. Oh look - he's angry, she's angry, then he later shrugs it off while she starts crying - pure comedy GOLD. Bonus points if HE'S the one that starts crying while she shrugs it off, just because nothing seems to tickle our funny bone more than a crying male.
Ah, don't you just love the glorification of machismo?
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Okay, rant over - you can go home now.
[Sig Note: Holy fucking crapshit - how the hell did a MANGA update turn into a rant against the glorification of machismo? Personally, I think this entry shows the peak of my insanity during my "no internet zone" era.]
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Day 43 - The dawn of realization
Monday, July 9, 2007 12:12 PM
John arrives tomorrow.
1PM at the Boise airport to be exact.
I just learned this a few minutes ago.
That's right, the bitch-slapping hand of reality has officially struck. I was hoping he'd come soon, but DAYUM.
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The "bitch-slapping hand of reality" - use your imagination on that one. :P
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Damn, I just got out of bed so it's too early to think of anything more to write. -_-
Oh well.
[Sig Note: Thus begins the beginning of the end of the "no internet zone" era.]
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Day 44 - Uh, wow?
Tuesday, July 10, 2007 9:02 AM
Yesterday was Ani-Monday on Sci-Fi Channel, and apparently Macross Plus ended its run. Four hour-long episodes, and even though I missed the third episode, the final one was good. "Hella good."
That finale theme though - holy SHIT. Not since .Hack//SIGN's "A Stray Child" has a song gotten to me so.
Now, Macross Plus was good, and I'd love to see the third episode's events. However, that finale theme (naming it so even though the song was played in various times of the short series since I don't know the actual name of the song) is reason enough for me to switch from "MIGHT look for the DVD" to "will look for the DVD". Besides, the series is short enough to fit on one, prolly two discs - more than likely it'll be cheap (under 30 bucks). And cheap = good.
Also, even though I missed most of the first and all of the third episode of Noein (also on Ani-Monday), it looks promising. [Especially yesterday's episode, which left me with that warm feeling inside (no, I didn't piss my pants - you numbnut).] I'd have to see more though before I make a decision.
Then there's Tokko. Missed the third episode, but found the fourth ... interesting. Thirteen episodes, eh? If everything ends up awesome, the DVD purchase will be a VERY smart buy - apparently, the DVDs are trilingual (English, Japanese, and SPANISH). Basically, if I end up loving Tokko, my parents could end up seeing it as well. Let's just hope Tokko ends up "awesome" and not "meh" (which is likely).
Macross Plus is a sure buy though. Since I'm definitely not a mecha fan, I'm not gonna look at the other Macross stuff out there. Macross Plus was good though, so I'll make an exception to the Mecha "genre" or whatever I should call it.
Damn, that finale theme...
[Sig Note: First of all, that bracketed part was added a bit after I finished typing this entry. Second, the name of the song in question is "Voices" and is available right here. In order to satisfy the curious, "A Stray Child" can be found here.]
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Day 45 - The Yin and Yang of Daily Life
Wednesday, July 11, 2007 5:28 PM
Holy hell.
First of all, Best Buy has been reassured as a fairly bad place to buy anime. Hastings has improved on my view of it being a bad place to buy manga, but it still sucks horribly compared to B&N. Anime-wise, it's better than Best Buy but still not exactly "to par" with my expectations.
No Macross Plus sadly. But the first volume of Tokko and the first three volumes of Noein are at Hastings. And Best Buy has (surprise!) Pani Poni Dash! (first volume)
No Azumanga Daioh sadly (bitches). But Hastings has...
*drumroll*
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*still drumroll*
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*drumroll stops*
TENCHI fucking MUYO! THIRTEEN EPISODES, INCLUDING THE 40+ MINUTE SEVENTH EPISODE!! GAH!!! *fanboy-gasm*
However, it's NINETY FUCKING BUCKS! GAH!!! *cries*
Hold on, lemme explain something. The 40-something minute seventh episode of Tenchi Muyo! named "Night Before the Carnival" is probably right there on my all-time favorite anime episodes, if not my all-time favorite. Considering the fact that I'm a Dragonball+Z+GT/Naruto/.Hack//SIGN fan, this is quite an accomplishment.
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Damn, hold on. Daft Punk is kicking ass right now.
I got two Daft Punk CDs at Hastings. "Discovery" was largely a disappointment, but it was worth it for Aerodynamic. "Human After All" on the other hand was pretty good. Got it for the full version of Technologic, kept playing it for The Prime Time Of Your Life and Television Rules The Nation.
Now I need Daft Punk's first album (forgot the name) - after that, my Daft-ness will be complete. Full version of Around The World, here I come! Woo! ^o^
"Television.
Rules the nation."
Kick ass.
[Sig Note: Wikipedia is your best friend. Since you're probably lost by now, now would be a good time to do some Wikipedia searches.]
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Day 46 - The end is near
Thursday, July 12, 2007 11:39 PM
That's right, FINALLY I see the end in sight. ^^
I saw today in the afternoon (while playing Soul Calibur II no less) something that can be considered "life-changing": a newly-purchased "Cable Gateway" from Best Buy.
That's right, I didn't know what the fuck it was either. But then I saw the text under it...
"Cable modem with built-in Wireless-G router."
Immediate reaction? "HOLY SHIT, a two-in-one??"
Needless to say, I was shocked something like that even existed. Then out of curiosity I saw the receipt.
"HOLY SHIT, $150??"
Needless to say, I was shocked. Then I remembered that had we gotten them separately as I had planned, we would've spent at most $10 more. Or at least I think so.
Anyway, TOMORROW (or at least that's what I think I heard) they're planning to activate the service and install the extra coaxial cable we need. 30 bucks a month for six months, then 45 bucks a month after. Much more expensive than I thought, but since it's the only Cable ISP in Twin we really don't have a choice.
OMG, BEST CASE SCENARIO, I can do a MASSIVE 'net splurge starting tomorrow night (with Smackdown! being the ... no, not even Smackdown! can stop it). WORST CASE SCENARIO, by Monday afternoon (thanks to the weekend). But if things go the way I think they will, in less than 24 HOURS I can post this ENTIRE text file in a Blogger post.
It'll probably end up being double (or even triple) the length of my longest blog post EVER (which I believe goes to either my final MySpace blog post, my Beatmania IIDX intro over at the House of Media, or one of my lengthy Type B posts at the Random Rantings blog), but quite frankly I stopped caring at around Day 30 or so.
Ah yes, Day 30. The day I found the perfect song to lose sanity to. I'll link to it somewhere at the end of the Day 30 post as a Sig Note or something.
[Sig Note: Or I could always link to it right here since I'm too lazy to scroll up and fix Day 30's Sig Note. And no, I don't know what the name of the song is, either (or who did it).]
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I received internet access on Day 47. "Tomorrow night"? More like "tomorrow afternoon" - which is when I got access. I'm almost finished updating most everything that needed updating, and I just need to post this text file on my Blogger blog. After that, the Type C flood stuff will need compiling before I post everything. Hopefully by tomorrow I can post it.
Currently 12:06 PM on Saturday, July 14, 2007. With that note, I bid this text file adieu.
- Sigmund Ignacio Nuka
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What's the pride and joy of the "no internet zone" accomplishments? This...
That's right - the "text flag" as a real flag. I fucking love Paint.
Anyway, my next post should be my Type C flood, so watch for that.
BTW, I'm currently using Firefox. Good holy HELL how I missed Firefox. I'll finish the Opera post later - for now, I'm continuing my 'net splurge. YAAAA!!!
- siggy
The following is an "offline blog post collection" of sorts done in Notepad, chronicling the significant events between Friday, May 25 and Thursday, July 12 of 2007. This post is VERY very long, so if you want to read it all, set aside AT LEAST about a half-hour of your time, preferably an entire hour.
Still reading? Good. Now we begin...
[Sig Note: I'll be making Sig Notes like these after each entry either as explanations, as a place to put additional content, or just as commentary.]
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Day 1 - The end of an era
Friday, May 25, 2007 9:55-ish AM
As of a few minutes ago, I believe that I can confirm that I will no longer have access to my neighbor's wi-fi after about a year and a half of semi-continuous use. This means that it'll more than likely be months until I will be able to access the internet again.
While this may drastically hurt my computer time, I might be able to make use of the eventual boring air by finishing up a few simfiles I had already started in StepMania. This includes my Flowering Night simfile, my NaHaNaHa vs Gattchoon Battle simfile, my Never Die simfile, maybe my Gambol simfile (maybe), and I might even fix up my Ganymede simfile so that it's actually possible to do those last couple of measures. I'll also probably do more Spike Racers stuff like starting the much-needed bios, some more character development, some needed character creation for the later Spike Racers storyline (and maybe even for the early SR storyline), MAYBE some Spike designs (doubtful though), and if things get REALLY desparate in the "no-internet zone", I might even try to learn how to draw. :O
Hell, and if I do learn enough drawing skills I'll be able to finally draw some of my more developed character designs like Magna Gin, Mindy Massa, maybe Grim Targus and Nice Haanstrasser, and I might even get enough confidence to finally draw the one - the only - ______ ______. ______ will be fucking HARD to get right though, so that in itself will probably take a few months to finally nail down.
[Sig Note: I censored that last name because I'm not quite ready to reveal that character's name just yet. Once I do end up revealing that character, I'll uncensor this.]
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Day 4 (Monday was Day 1 again) - Thought Purge #1
Thursday, May 31, 2007 8:33 PM
Had access from mid Sunday afternoon until I turned on my computer again early Monday afternoon. Haven't had access since.
This is really starting to take its toll, psychologically speaking. For only the second time in my life, I took my computer out to our back porch in order to get a connection (desparation does that). Sadly, there is none (like the first time way back when). However, unlike the first time, I decided to stay here on the porch table (thank goodness my mom cleaned it a few days ago - it's usually a dirty mess since no one ever uses it).
Now, I know that I've been a psychological mess these past months, but I fear that it's only getting gradually worse as time passes. Nothing's helping, either - my music is starting to get annoying and my only commonly-seen friend is back from Mexico and now he's working during most of my waking hours every day although even if he wasn't there's still no way I'd ever tell him of these writings of mine (he has absolutely NO idea about the contents of any of my blogs or anything that any of my blogs ever mention). I almost did once - when asked about how things had been and after I said the customary response ("nothing really"), I started mentioning how there were "other little things that really aren't that important anyway" - he wanted to know what it was over the phone, but I mentioned that it really wasn't the right time to talk about it (it was the first time he had called me since he came back). Thankfully, he's probably forgotten about it by now because we've seen and talked to each other various times since then and he hasn't mentioned anything about it. Besides, I told him where to find my blogs and that he should read them - and since he hates reading much less reading THAT MUCH, I have confidence that he'll never read them. Which means that he'll probably never know a THING about how I'm slowly going insane for possibly the third time in like a few months time - unless I personally tell him of course (which'll probably never happen by the looks of things).
Why do I keep typing, honestly? It's not like this is helping - it's not. It's not like someone's gonna look at these words and sentences and go "this person is suffering and he needs help" - honestly, who the fuck would do something like that?
Ever since I can remember, I've always been my own counselor for EVERYTHING. Remember those "suicidal outbursts" in seventh grade I write about so much? One day I got sent to the school officer's office for that. My mom got word of it, and after a stern talking-to from the officer, the school translator, and my mom, my so-called "talks of suicide" were finally put to rest and I was suddenly supposed to be better. Years later, I researched some stuff about clinical depression and the like, and I find out that when people have sucidal thoughts, they supposedly have to go through some kind of "therapy" or some shit like that. I personally found this new information rather amusing - I have NEVER gone through any sort of counseling or psychological therapy or any shit like that IN MY LIFE. Not even when I had my "suicidal outbursts". Hell, I never even had much friend support much less professional counseling. All of my personal problems that I've ever had I've dealt with myself, without any help whatsoever. And as much as I'd like to change that, it's more than likely gonna stay like that for the rest of my life. Why? Mostly because I find it hard to trust my own self, much less my friends and family, much less my friends and family to the point where I can tell them about my problems face-to-face. And I blame that on my school experiences. No matter how hard I tried, I was always a loner at school - that meant that I never had those friendly conversations and I never "hanged out". Later on I would get bullied and stuff - and after some time it got to the point where every time someone came up to me, I would receive some small emotional abuse and I would end up heavily embarrased (especially during seventh grade). By seventh grade however, it was to the point where every time someone opened their mouth at my direction, it was for more "emotionally abusive" statements or questions. This became so commonplace that I would eventually expect that every time I was approached by a non-friend, it was for more "emotional abuse". Every time.
Fast-forward to now. I see somewhere (on TV I think) that the teenage years are supposed to be the happiest times of our lives. My "teenage years" will officially end in less than two months, and I have to say that it's been pure hell. Some people would love to revisit their high-school years - I'd rather kill myself than relive those hellish three years again (thanks to the junior high system it was only three years - another one would've probably killed me - literally).
[Sig Note: Actually, now it's ten days away. My b-day I mean.]
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Day 5 - Finishing the Purge
Friday, June 1, 2007 12:19 PM
Okay, so it apparently ended abruptly. That's because it was almost 10:30 and the gnats were starting to gather near my computer screen, so I said "to hell with this" and went inside. I would've finished it afterwards, but I forgot about it. ^^;;
Still no connection. Pisses me off.
I forgot to mention on the purge itself how I was researching on stuff about clinical depression and I stumbled upon the warning signs. Supposedly, a doctor (or someone similar) should be seen if you've been feeling depressed for over two weeks. I thought "TWO WEEKS? HAH! Wusses." It was pretty amusing, really.
[Sig Note: I fucking hate gnats. With a passion.]
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Day 6 - Slight advances
Saturday, June 2, 2007 10:46 PM
Well, thanks to the sheer boredom this "no internet zone" thing has been causing me, I was able to almost complete my Flowering Night simfile that I mentioned earlier. It's fairly easy to make, since the song allows me to copy-paste a couple of note sections various times throughout the entire step chart. Since it's a gamerip and the song therefore repeats once, I was able to copy the entire first half of the song's step chart (minus a small unfinished section at the end) and paste the notes after the section that needs work. All that's left is to finish stepping the unfinished section and copy-paste it to the end of the step chart. Then I'm done - yay! ^o^
Heh, what a coincidence. Flowering Night just came up on my iPod's shuffled playlist. :D
And I just repeated it. ^^;;
Anyway, I also decided to re-export my two songs (and their "Bemani Cut" counterparts) into WAV files. Once I did (various times because ModPlug Tracker didn't export them correctly and because I kept making various volume adjustments to that damn piano), I loaded Sound Recorder and tried further bumping up the volume. That's when I found my previous problem's source: it wasn't ModPlug Tracker's fault (as I had thought) - it was Sound Recorder's fault. With enough volume bumps (four I determined), the quality of the song ends up like shit.
I'm probably gonna have to finally install Audacity now and see if I can bump up the song volume with that program (maybe - after all, it's supposed to be really popular with podcasters - or at least that's what the Wikipedia article said).
[Sig Note: Currently, Audacity is just sitting there on my computer's desktop. You'll find out why later on.]
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Day 9 - Random talk
Tuesday, June 5, 2007 8:04 PM
I'm starting to listen to songs on iTunes that I haven't heard in next to forever now. Currently at Led Zeppelin.
Heh, how interesting. Since the window of my room is open, I can actually hear the rain outside. Well, sorta - I'm also listening to Led Zeppelin's "Since I've Been Loving You" right now. What an interesting combination.
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Still raining, but now "Stairway to Heaven" has just started. Wow, now THIS is ambience.
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As you can see, I don't know what to write. At all. "No Quarter" isn't helping things, either (nor is it hindering things though, so I'm keeping it on play).
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Wow, is it just me, or is it raining a bit harder right now? O_o
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Ah yes, "Achilles Last Stand" just came on. In the original video game version of Spike Racers, there was a track built around this song. The supposed "Spiketradamus" track (tentatively named of course, although it wasn't always a tentative name sadly) was a three-lap course with lap times of about 3 minutes each. The goal was to beat the competing mega-sized machine (the pilot of which I would eventually name "Goliath" Samuelsson), which would finish the three laps in about 9 1/2 minutes time. Would it have been awesome? For a futuristic racing game it most certainly would've been original (almost every track of the early video-game era was completely tube-based, allowing for multiple directions in races and "upward hairpin turns") since Goliath's machine (named "Boss" of course) was supposedly about half the diameter of the track itself and was (and still will be) about three to four times the size of an average Spike Racing machine (regular "season-acceptable" machines average in length about the length of the trailer section of a semi-truck and diameters are usually over twice the width of a semi-truck).
[Sig Note: Next time it's raining hard outside, start playing Led Zeppelin's "Since I've Been Loving You" and after that "Stairway to Heaven" - TRUST ME on this one: it kicks ASS.]
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Day 10 - Finishing it up
Wednesday, June 6, 2007 1:06 AM
Continuing from the above: would it have been awesome? HELLS YES. Racing games have never had that sort of originality - EVER. Nor will racing games EVER have that originality sadly. Downward turns? Racing against a machine three to four times your machine's size? A speed limit that's determined not by the machine's power, but by your own abilities as a pilot? A fairly-used brake button? How many racing games IN EXISTENCE can brag about having a track with multiple turns that are neither left nor right turns? None that I'm aware of.
Sadly though, the Spike Racers video game era officially ended almost a year ago. Now, although I would LOVE for Spike Racers to start out as a full-fledged animation complete with an official soundtrack (done by the great VH Nox), voice actors/actresses (professional-sounding amateurs of course, more than likely friends of friends of friends), and even commercials (yes, you read that right), more than likely Spike Racers will end up as a multi-page webcomic. Every week (going for Sundays because webcomics and even most other sites never update on Sundays), a new 20-30something page "episode" would be posted online. I would probably do the episodes many months (or even a year or so) in advance and start posting them when I'm almost done with the entire next "season" or even later. In other words, by the time you're almost finished seeing Spike Racers 1, I should be in the middle of making Spike Racers 3 AT LEAST.
What are my chances of learning how to draw? Extremely slim. I struggle with pencils when I'm WRITING - now DRAWING? I don't think I'm fully aware of how badly I'm gonna feel after I attempt (and fail) to learn how to draw for the billionth time, this time using "The Complete Idiot's Guide to Drawing" as a teacher (which I have yet to purchase but I will soon). My chances of learning how to draw are about as good as the chances of a parrot learning Japanese as a second language. Basically, somewhere along the lines of "I'll be damned if that ever happens, but wouldn't it be cool as hell if it did?"
2:30 in the morning. I better go to sleep before my dad wakes up. The only good thing about this "no internet zone" thing is that my computer is at my room now where it belongs. After having it in the kitchen for months at a time (literally - good thing there's an outlet right next to the dining table), having it in my room is much nicer. Too bad that if I get a connection again I'll eventually have this computer in the kitchen 24/7 once more. "Get your own connection" you say? We can't. We can't afford it.
My dad just coughed - not good. Gotta go - see ya. *hears snoring* Whew, false alarm. Still, I gotta go. 2:37 AM and I'm bored anyway.
Night. ^_^
[Sig Note: Now that I think about it, if I do a booklet-style webcomic, I could do some fake advertisements or something. It'd be quite entertaining to say the least. :P]
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Day 17 - An interesting discovery
Wednesday, June 13, 2007 2:28 AM
I was just looking through some old text files of my Spike Racers video game-era development, and I came across some amusing stuff involving "Spiketradamus". Let's look through and update this, shall we?
"The Olympus Mons Invitational, held every year a few weeks after the official end of the season, is known as the most grueling and dangerous race of all time."
No longer true - that honor goes to the "Obelisk Pair" tracks. Held once as the 12th season opening race location, its winner was forced to immediately retire after prolonged exposure to high g-forces (he was going around Mach 11 or so, but thanks to the machine's g-force limiters he wasn't killed - although now he can't race anymore due to chronic injuries). But anyway...
"Most of the danger is credited to the host of the race and main attraction: "Goliath" Samuelsson and his colossal machine known as Boss."
Still true, although there's also the fact that it's the third-longest official Spike Racing track currently built, with lap times averaging just over three minutes each. At three laps, it makes for a very grueling race.
"The largest fully-functional terrestrial race machine in the known galaxy, it is also the largest known double-turbine engine in existence - over sixty feet in diameter at its widest, and almost half a football field in length."
That first part was amusing. "Double-turbine engine" you say? XD
That second part though was what caught my attention...
"...over sixty feet in diameter at its widest, and almost half a football field in length."
Holy SHIT that's big.
I was actually considering keeping the measurements, since they sounded right. But after looking at an old "scale-drawing" of some machines with Boss at the background, I'm not so sure.
But now that I look at the drawing more closely, it sure as hell ain't "to-scale" to begin with. However, based on the closest-to-scale machines with Boss, I have guesstimated Boss to be over 70ish feet in diameter at its widest, and somewhere around 115ish feet in length. I have also guesstimated regular machines to average somewhere around 12-20ish feet in diameter and range anywhere from 12ish to 40ish feet in length depending on the machine's design.
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Holy bloody crapshit that's fucking HUGE. 70-foot diameter and 115-foot length? Ish? Damn that's big. And the regular machines are nothing to sneeze at, either.
Now think of the power. These machines race at an average of just over Mach 1.5 - and very fast races average about just under Mach 2.
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You know what? Screw Podraces and the F-Zero races - Spike Racing kicks ass.
Nyeh.
[Sig Note: That goes double for Wipeout's multiple racing leagues. CONSISTENCY, PEOPLE!]
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Day 18 - Technical Difficulties
Thursday, June 14, 2007 10:24 PM
Oh good holy hell - NOW I remember why I fucking hate encoding with LAME. >:(
Okay, here's the jist - my attempts at boosting up the volume of my songs are in vain. I FINALLY installed Audacity, but ANY VOLUME BOOST WHATSOEVER would apparently shoot the quality of the songs down the drain. So I decided to encode them to mp3 as-is. Unfortunately, a couple of minutes ago I remembered why I was encoding everything with iTunes in the first place - LAME SUCKS BALLS. My songs encoded with LAME sound MUCH much worse than if I had solely boosted the volume with Sound Recorder and left them as WAV files.
I'm extremely pissed off right now because I was THIS close to finishing up the songs. I had ID3 tags and everything. Then I put them on Winamp and THE QUALITY WAS PURE SHIT.
Lesson for today: ALWAYS encode your WAV files to mp3s using iTunes. Encoding WAV files to mp3 with LAME is like beating the files with a bat Office Space style. Popular, yes - but NOT RECOMMENDED.
That is hopefully all. Hopefully.
[Sig Note: So in the end, Audacity was worthless for what I wanted it for. If I ever make an A-Log in the future though, I'll be using Audacity instead of Sound Recorder.]
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Day 19 - Inspiration Strikes!
Friday, June 15, 2007 12:39 PM
Last night at around 2:00 AM or so a song idea suddenly popped into my head. I was still on my 'puter at the time, and I wasn't doing much anything anyway, so I decided to open up ModPlug Tracker and put the song idea down. Unfortunately, I was struggling with the melody which had since faded into the nether reaches of my noggin. After switching from sample to sample and readjusting note after note, I finally came to three conclusions.
1: I need better samples.
2: Had I known how to play the guitar, none of these shenanigans would've ever happened.
3: The melody was gonna suck no matter what I did to it.
So I did the logical thing and sent the song to the way of the Daft Punk: I took out the ENTIRE melody that it had (all half a "pattern") and started working on the basic groove making occasional variations along the way. Earlier today I finished it and somehow it ended up being my longest song to date (which is nice).
So now I have Piano Electronica, Piano Electronica (IIDX Cut), Drum n' Bass n' Piano, Drum n' Bass n' Piano (DDR Cut), and this new one which I'll reveal the name of when I post my Type C flood once I'm back online.
Trust me - this song surprisingly kicks ass. It's what people would call a "head-bopper" (or something like that).
BTW, iTunes ended up chopping the quality of my other four files when converting to mp3. I'm too lazy to figure out why, so I'll just leave 'em like that. ID3 tags have been made for all five files, and the songs are now ready for distribution! Yay! ^o^
Now all I need is internet access.
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*sigh* I miss having internet access.
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Him.
On the roof.
With the groove.
On the house that we built.
[Sig Note: I give no hints. Sorry.]
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Day 24 - Acquiring the means w/included phobic tendencies
Wednesday, June 20, 2007 2:52 PM
I need to make a correction. The title of the book wasn't "The Complete Idiot's Guide to Drawing", it was "Drawing for Dummies" - and it was 20 bucks (I had set aside 30, so that was very lucky of me). Still, there IS a copy of "The Complete Idiot's Guide to Drawing Basics" at B&N (also 20 bucks) so if this book fails, I can always try that one as a (very) last resort before giving up drawing and therefore Spike Racers development completely.
This whole "drawing" business is starting to be a phobia of sorts. Seriously, I've been trying to work myself to start learning how to draw all day (all two and a half hours of it so far). I really can't bring myself to touch one of my pencils that are literally right next to this laptop, and it's starting to bother me immensely.
I need to figure out a way to overcome this immense fear that has very suddenly overcome me. If I don't, then Spike Racers will be trashed (along with the 8+ years of on-off work that makes it a potential masterpiece) along with my 2nd story (currently on indefinite hold until my drawing skills are good enough to pull it off) tentavely titled "Legacy" with a history that greatly rivals Spike Racers in development length, overall epicness, and story/character complexity (my current passion is with Spike Racers though, since it's much less strange than Legacy).
This would also shatter my plans of a third story with a development history of about a couple of months (during which the final title and basic premise have been decided on - and that's it).
[Sig Note: It would also shatter my plans of a fourth story, with a development history of about a few days now and a basic concept history of a few years. Even sadder? It's an animated sitcom (minus the "animated" part of course, although after three stories that could change).]
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Day 25 - The reappearance of apathy
Thursday, June 21, 2007 10:33 AM
As you can see, I didn't finish my last entry. That's because, well, I just didn't feel like finishing it. I could say that I got distracted, or that I ran out of things to say, or that I couldn't find the right way to say what I had to say. And while those are true to an extent, the main reason why I didn't finish is because I ... just didn't feel like it.
I don't know why I got up early today (8:30-ish). I went to sleep at around 2:30-ish I think, so that's almost six hours of total sleep for me. Am I tired? Yeah. But I don't feel like going back to bed. Dunno why.
[Sig Note: This entry speaks for itself. These "Sig Notes" are tiring to write.]
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Day 25 - The limitations of LEGO
Thursday, June 21, 2007 8:15 PM
Okay, so after my second hour-long attempt of trying to make a LEGO model of a Spike Racers machine (through LEGO Digital Designer, downloadable from the official site), I think I can conclude that LEGO bricks are NOT suitable for making Spike models. What a shame. :(
Now, I shall turn to K'NEX. All I need to do is GET A FRIGGIN INTERNET CONNECTION! GAH!!
T_T
[Sig Note: K'NEX looks promising - 400-piece K'NEX tubs apparently cost 20 bucks at Target.]
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Day 26 - Quick recommendation
Friday, June 22, 2007 1:36 AM
Okay, so I WAS gonna do a manga review, but sadly I don't know how to without ruining the story.
So I'll just say this: buy all five current volumes of LIFE. Now.
Created by Keiko Suenobu (I didn't recognize the name either) and published by Tokyopop (that way you know what to look for), this is by far my absolute favorite manga series that I have ever come across (and I count Megatokyo in this even though it's not really a "manga" series). Now, for those of you who aren't into the drama genre and/or are big action-fan thugs (figuratively and literally speaking), STAY AWAY FROM THIS. The plot is about as emotional as the visual novel media would probably allow. "Holy SHIT that's emotional" -type stuff.
Okay, so I'm horrible at my word choices. But still, this is one hell of a series that touches on a subject that I really wish more series would touch on. I need more manga series like this one (anime is fine, too). Now.
And I need a quicker release schedule of volumes of LIFE. Volume 6 comes out I think in mid-September (I can't check though for OBVIOUS REASONS), and I really don't think I can wait for that long. Three months? Damn you, Tokyopop.
So before I make even less sense, here's the synopsis of LIFE Volume 1 taken from the inside back cover. *looks at length of synopsis* ...Holy hell that's a lot of typing. Damn you again, Tokyopop.
"Ayumu Shiiba is studying for the all-important high school entrance exams. She is struggling to get by, but thankfully has help from her best friend Shii-chan, who is at the top of their class. But when the test results come back, their friendship falls apart - Ayumu surpasses Shii-chan's scores and gets into her high school of choice while Shii-chan doesn't!
Losing Shii-chan is so painful for Ayumu that she starts cutting her wrists for comfort. Hoping for a fresh start, Ayumu arrives at her new high school and finally opens up to a new friend, Manami. But will Manami prove to be the friend that Ayumu truly needs or send her further in a downward spiral?"
I just saw something on the ad pages on the back: "Read the entire first chapter online for free: www.tokyopop.com/life"; personally, I recommend doing so. Almost 100 pages, and it's absolutely perfect as a stand-alone chapter. You can't get introduced to the story better than that without having to pay a cent.
Now, the books are 10 bucks each, so if the first chapter seems interesting, grab 50 bucks and buy all five current books. TRUST ME - it's well worth it. Take it from someone who's fairly cautious on what manga series to start buying. Hell, here's a list of manga series that I'm considering on buying for the first time.
- Neon Genesis Evangelion (that's if I can find the FIRST FRIGGIN VOLUME!)
- Welcome to the NHK (the only thing that stopped me from buying this instead of LIFE Volume 1 was the 18+ rating)
- Ranma 1/2 (I honestly have no idea why, and I don't think I have the bookshelf space to accomodate the entire series)
- Fruits Basket (shut up - I still need to find out more about it through Wikipedia before I come to a conclusion)
- Bleach (recommended to me by a friend, but I'm kinda hesitant now after doing some research a while back)
- BECK: Mongolian Chop Squad (doubt it though, but not completely ruled out just yet)
- Dragonball (this would be too cliche though, which is why I got Dr. Slump - but sadly, I'm still considering this)
- Cromartie High School (Protoculture Addicts previewed this in the current issue #91, and I liked it enough to look for it)
All of them except Cromartie High School I've been considering on buying for about a few months now, maybe even close to half a year. Naruto was also on this list, but my love for the anime and the lack of other titles to find at B&N forced me to succumb to the temptation. Naruto is basically a "meanwhile I get the other titles" series for me, although I can't seem to find Volume 9 for some odd reason. If on my next trip to B&N I don't find a series-continuation volume for my collection, I'm probably gonna start looking for the first volume of Cromartie High School.
[Sig Note: YOU MOTHERFUCKING SONUVA BITCH - TOKYOPOP JUST HAD TO DO A COMPLETE SITE REDESIGN - WELL, YOU CAN KISS YOUR "FREE PREVIEW" GOODBYE BECAUSE THE PEOPLE AT TOKYOPOP ARE COMPLETE BASTARDS! GAH!!!]
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Day 26 - Not-so-quick finisher
Friday, June 22, 2007 2:03 PM
Ugh, just woke up. Last night my dad woke up so I bailed from the 'puter IMMEDIATELY. Hence the unfinished entry.
Anyway, in short: go to the website I posted and read that first chapter (just under 100 pages). If you like it (and you probably will if you're not an action thug and/or you don't mind the drama genre), then grab 50 bucks plus the respective sales tax (if there IS a sales tax where you are) and BUY ALL FIVE CURRENT VOLUMES! NOW!
And yes, I really don't know how my "quick recommendation" got that fucking long. I guess it's proof of how I need to stop rambling.
Hell, I ramble all the fucking time if given the chance. E-mail, PMs, comments, blog posts, even vocally if I'm not too nervous to talk (and sometimes even when I'm nervous). It's starting to annoy the fuck out of me and probably everyone else as well. Seriously, I need to stop ta*THWACK* *thud*
[Sig Note: You know what? Go to The Pirate Bay and look for the first volume there. Tokyopop pissed me the fuck off. Just remember to look for "Keiko Suenobu" if it gets too hard to find.]
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Day 27 - Proof of insanity
Saturday, June 23, 2007 3:53 PM
I made this in Notepad a few days ago. [Sig Note: Looks better with Arial font.]
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It kinda looks like a flag, doesn't it? If it doesn't, turn your head 90 degrees.
Now I just need to copy this to Paint, fix it up, and give it color. [Sig Note: Already done - scroll down to the very end of this post to see the kick-ass results.]
Just give me a few weeks - I kinda don't feel like doing it right now.
BTW, all "that's what she said" comments will be replied to by e-mail with a large image of Tubgirl. I'm not fucking kidding, either. Hell, I'm actually WILLING to Google Image Search a big-enough Tubgirl image for punishment purposes.
Hell, I might look for one just in case.
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Okay, I think the above sentence was proof of my insanity. You know I've missed having internet access when I'm actually WILLING to look for a large image of Tubgirl. Good holy HELL I've officially gone off the deep-end.
In a COMPLETELY unrelated note, Happy Birthday to one of my friends whom I will not name but you know who you are (even if you'll probably never read this). No, I didn't forget - but having no internet access prevents me from letting you know on the actual day. ^_^;;
BTW, the "text flag" above is best seen with "Arial" font - "Times New Roman" does NOT do it justice. Nor does any other font, sadly.
[Sig Note: That includes this Georgia font that Blogger uses.]
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Day 28 - Keeping track of the "zone"
Sunday, June 24, 2007 7:42 PM
I just added the day numbers next to the entry titles. That way, I know exactly how long I've been deprived of internet access.
Interesting note: not only has it been exactly one month (31 days since May 24) since I was first introduced to the "no internet zone" (although I didn't realize until the next morning that it wasn't my computer's fault), it's also exactly one month until my b-day. The day after tomorrow will be the "30 days straight" mark of having no internet access (which is what I'm keeping track of here), and I'm becoming quite psychotic from the sheer boredom this is causing. Combine that with an immense apathy caused by my semi-depressed mood, and I'm just hoping that John gets here very soon to shake things up a bit.
It's almost always EXTREMELY SLOW here at my house during this time of night (unless it's Monday or Friday because that's when wrestling is on), and that slowness is usually solved with some internet surfing. However, since there's no internet, I've been doing various other things during this time of day like writing these entries, listening to music, wandering around the contents of my hard drives, playing Soul Calibur II (which I'll probably do in a bit), watching TV knowing that nothing is on (no longer an extreme rarity thanks to the "no internet zone"), reading one of my manga books for the umpteenth time (which I do sparingly) or a magazine (usually EGM, but lately Protoculture Addicts has become interesting as well), or just lie down on the (carpeted) floor of my room with either my computer, my iPod, some reading material, or sometimes with nothing at all (except for the clothes on me you fucking pervs), and eventually I'll just fall asleep from sheer boredom. It happens regularly, too.
I need to go downstairs though and fix my VCR so that I can program it to record a show tomorrow. After that I'll probably stay down there and play SC2 with music playing from my iPod (thanks to the headphone-to-RCA cable I have). Or something.
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This shit is boring. And I have an image to represent that which I'll post a link to with this entry once I'm online.
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BTW, the underscore lines that I do in order to divide each entry all consist of 23 underscores. Every single one of them. Check for yourself if you don't believe me.
[Sig Note: The image in question. And the underscore fact isn't limited to this post - go check my MySpace blog posts and look for any underscore lines. All of them are 23-underscore lines. All of them. I think...]
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Day 30 - One month of 'net deprivation makes Sig Nuka something something
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 5:02 PM
Today is the 30-day-straight mark of having no internet access. And as usual, I'm feeling quite psychotic right now.
Gyrkryckyt. Grr-CRICK-it.
I just made that word up as I was figuring out what to type after "quite psychotic right now."
I like that word. Gyrkryckyt.
Gyrkryckyt. Gyrkryckyt. Gyrkryckyt.
GYRKRYCKYT MOTHERFUCKER, GYRKRYCKYT!
GyaaNyaaNyaaaaaa, I'm going insane in the membrane (insane in the brain - pwiooiooi).
Insane in the membrane (IT'S INSANE - GOT NO BRAIN).
"Nay, I find thee quite unpleasing" - from first Unsorted Shit (forgot which day, prolly 2nd)
Nyaka-Nya. Nyaka-Nya! NYAKA-NYA! (this was inspired by Mr. Pregnant's "Shnacker Shnaw" - look it up on YouTube or something)
GYRKRYCKYT MOTHERFUCKER!
"Is Wayne Brady gonna hafta choke a bitch?" - Wayne Brady, from an episode of Chapelle's Show
"Byaaa!" - Dave Chapelle as Howard Dean from another episode of Chapelle's Show
Toko-toko-toko-toko-TAN (toko-toko-TAN). Toko-toko-toko-toko-TA-GRYPLIPLIBLABLABLATHOOOOOM!
BOOSH!
Kakakakakakaka-OH GOOD GOD NOT IN THE HOUSE!
Fwoosh.
Can I stop now?
NOT UNTIL THE FAT LADY SINGS!
What fat lady?
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Oh okay fine - you can stop now.
WOO! *thud*
[Sig Note: This entry was kinda fun to make. Proof of my insanity? Plenty.]
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Day 31 - Subconcious obsession?
Wednesday, June 27, 2007 1:32 PM
I can't believe I'm actually gonna type this.
Not even an hour ago, I had another one of "those" dreams.
Now, it's not a recurring SPECIFIC dream mind you (would be nice to have one of those), but rather a recurring setting/theme or some shit like that. Specifically, it's a school setting and a specific person always happens to be there (I won't say who - too ... embarrassing). Always.
Just under an hour ago, I had another one of those dreams again. School setting, and that person was there - practically right next to me.
Ah yes - instant ramen noodles. Always the perfect breakfast (technically lunch, but it's breakfast to me). I'd love to have REAL ramen noodles some day. But I digress.
The dream itself wasn't anything special, although apparently my 6'1/2" stature is considered tall (I was gonna compare height with some other student and I told recurring person to stand up also - apparently "other student" ended up being just an inch shorter than "recurring person" and I just towered over the two just like real life would say).
Mmm, now THAT'S good instant ramen.
Anyway, the actual dream wasn't special. However, what bugs me the most is the appearance of "recurring person". "Recurring person" has appeared in just about every single school-setting dream I've had over the past year or two (there are a couple of exceptions, but compared to the number of school-setting dreams I've had it's barely worth noting) and even in a couple of non-school related ones (I think ... maybe). "Recurring person" is currently the most likely recognizable person to appear in a dream of mine, with MY OWN BROTHER at a close second.
Obsession? Not a concious one. Honestly, on the concious level there's nothing even remotely close to an "obsession", and even the thought of it makes me chuckle.
What's starting to freak me out is the possibility of a sub-concious obsession. Why does this person appear in more dreams than my own brother does? Why?
WHY IN THE BLOODY HELL DOES THIS PERSON APPEAR IN MY DREAMS MORE TIMES THAN MY OWN FLESH AND BLOOD?! AUGH!!
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I don't like obsessions. There's no such thing as a "good" obsession or a "healthy" obsession.
I don't want to have an obsession. It ... it'd be like a drug addiction or something like that. People don't look at drug addicts with a good eye. Same thing with people who have an obsession with something. It's like if they had a drug addiction or something. And most of the time they've never even TOUCHED a drug - and yet they're treated just the same.
I hate being treated like a rot-covered tumbleweed. An obsession would only make it worse.
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Here I go, rambling on like an idiot again. I should stop here.
I just hope I don't ruin my life by typing this. I probably should've just kept my damn mouth shut.
[Sig Note: Only time will tell on how this entry affects me (and other people).]
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Day 33 - Psychotic nothings
Friday, June 29, 2007 5:21 PM
The nature of my life makes it extremely hard to write about. Nothing happens. Literally NOTHING happens. So the moment something ACTUALLY happens, I write about it.
Sadly, this entry is a false alarm, as nothing has happened. At all.
So the only persistently entertaining thing that I can do is release the gates of psychotic insanity and just go NUTS for absolutely no reason. My "Day 30" entry shows the results of my most recent "psychotic episode", so to speak.
Unfortunately, going batshit insane is starting to get kinda boring. Like everything else.
[Sig Note: Hahaha, I like the title of this entry: "Psychotic nothings". XD]
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Day 36 - [no name]
Monday, July 2, 2007 3:30 PM
[Sig Note: I couldn't think of a name for this entry, so I left it without one.]
Okay, this one's a two-parter.
First of all, yesterday night I got curious on something: how would a simfile of "garden" look like? How would it be done?
Now, I was asking myself this because garden switches between 3/4 and 5/4 timing. However, the original beatmania IIDX notechart lists the BPM as 220, which would probably take care of that problem.
So yesterday night I tested my theory out. As it turns out, the beginning of the song is kinda off-beat but otherwise I was right.
However, after continuing to make the simfile I got to the final part of the song (after putting some placeholder notes on the later half of the song) after which I learned something: HOLY FUCKING SHIT garden is hard as FUCK to make a simfile out of (well, the OST version of garden is hard - I bet the gamerip version is much easier).
So after eventually getting frustrated with garden, I decided to try finishing my Flowering Night simfile. Through fears of overstepping it just a tad (as I was trying to step the percussion since the actual piano was quiet as fuck), deciding to step a small empty section of an earlier part of the song, and praising the feature of copy-pasting notes (which I used extensively thanks to the song's nature), I FINALLY finished my Flowering Night simfile! Yay!
Just in case though, I'm gonna label this simfile as a WIP for feedback purposes. It's not done until I take care of the simfile's issues discovered by people who actually know what the fuck they're doing.
Now for part two.
Last night I had another dream involving "recurring person". The oddity this time was the fact that "recurring person" never visually appeared - for the entire dream I was actually talking to "recurring person" on the phone.
O_o
This dream marks the very first time that I ever talked to someone over the phone INSIDE THE FUCKING DREAM. Interestingly enough, it was a pretty enjoyable dream - a "stress-reliever" if you will. Still, the fact that I had a dream like this while apparently "recurring person" claimed to be perfectly fine despite my worries concerns me. I've heard of people who've had dreams of loved ones claiming to be absolutely fine then some time after waking up learning that those very loved ones were dead. The fact that I had a dream like this concerns me greatly about how this person is doing considering how things are in-
O_O
NO! HELL NO! I WILL NOT RISK REVEALING THE IDENTITY OF "RECURRING PERSON" - NOT TODAY!
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Um, okay - is it just me or am I starting to go insane again? Damn you, Stepmania. Damn you, um...
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...nope. Can't finish it.
Damn you, ambiguity. Damn you, low vocabulary. Damn you, repetitive damn you's. DAMN YOU, LACK OF TIME TO COME UP WITH A BETTER WAY TO END THIS ENTRY! DAMN YOU!
[Sig Note: I'm sorry, the explanation you have reached is no longer in service. Please check your excuses and try again.]
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Day 40 - Monotony, anyone?
Friday, July 6, 2007 6:03 PM
Well, I think it's official now - I have apparently run out of ways to entertain myself.
No new song ideas to butcher up with ModPlug Tracker or Anvil Studio.
No new/finished pathetic excuses of simfiles.
No significant progress with Spike Racers. Hell, no MINOR progress with Spike Racers.
No attempts at making another video for fear of fucking up my computer again - again.
Still haven't tried to learn how to draw. I think it's probably a phobia by now.
Going batshit crazy is starting to get old.
My music collection is getting repetitive. (this coming from someone who once had a song reach 50 plays in less than a week's time, and recently had another song reach 30 plays in about two days)
I apparently can't beat Metroid Prime 2 - damn you Dark Samus. So now I'm item-hunting. That gets boring QUICKLY.
Ugh, hold on - I gotta eat. >:(
[Sig Note: Yeah, because eating is SO overrated.]
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Day 40 - Still with the monotony (well, kinda)
Friday, July 6, 2007 11:02 PM
Just saw this, gonna finish it.
TV is - well - what it usually is. Tomorrow's Saturday so that means new Naruto.
BTW, I finally saw the second half of the second disc of the first Naruto Uncut Box Set I got some time ago. Fourth of July does that to you. [Sig Note: Actually, I finished it now. The second box set is gonna be hard as FUCK to find though.]
Anyway, besides three new songs I found on the 99.6% finished 16.5 GB "japanese doujin" song pack yesterday night [Sig Note: Correction: 99.8% - and it's done now.], most everything else on my tiny 4 gig iPod is starting to get repetitive. Sad too, 'cause it's full and I'm running out of songs to take out. Honestly, I need one of those 30 GB video iPods, just for size alone (I don't care about having videos on my iPod - I just need some friggin SPACE). I think the bulk of my laptop hard drive (a puny 40 gig) is music, since my music folder is like 8-9 gigs and I have like a couple of gigs of music stored on a separate folder (don't ask why - I just found a convenient download place and that place just grew and grew to mass proportions). All in all, I BELIEVE I have about 12 or so gigs of music on my laptop hard drive, which would make about a third of the entire hard drive. Add on the 16 or so gigs from the doujin pack (there's quite a bit of album art) and I think a 30 GB iPod would be perfect for me. ^_^
And for those of you who try to make the argument that I wouldn't listen to it all, I say "of course I won't probably listen to it all - but I'll more than likely listen to most of it considering who I am."
Of course, my current iPod will still see frequent use as a "favorite songs" iPod along with whatever I'm addicted to at the time. But when I want more variety (or if I want to explore the doujin pack some more), I can always go to my big one.
Besides, I'm still expecting much more music. I'm hoping for sometime in the near future to buy my very first import CD. I'm actually deciding between Akira Yamaoka's "iFUTURELIST" (mostly long versions of his kick-ass IIDX songs, although I think there's one or two Silent Hill tracks as well) and the "beatmania IIDX 14 GOLD OST" / dj TAKA's "Milestone" CD pack (80-something bucks, "Milestone" has long versions AND REMIXES of his IIDX songs, all in all 4 discs in total, DEFINITELY worth the money).
Sure, I could always just download the CDs, but for once I actually want to purchase PHYSICAL COPIES. Hells yeah, bitches. >:)
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Bah, I can't seem to end this correctly, so I'll just say this: I might be going to B&N tomorrow so expect some talk about what I got (and why) either tomorrow or Sunday. Yeah,
I'm talking to all the people who can actually read this - all one of me.
You hear me? YOU CAN'T IGNORE ME FOREVER!! Oh yes I can. Um, he wasn't talking to you, he was talking to him over there. Who, that wierd guy? Yeah. YOU LISTEN TO ME, LITTLE MAN - I AM NOT AFRAID TO TAKE YOU DOWN! That's what she said. Oh, stop it - you sound like an immature junior high-schooler. Mmm, that's a good peanut-butter sandwich - lightly-toasted bread, too. Guys, shut up - I can't concentrate on solving that Mighl Sonne dilemma that one girl brought up. HAY GUYS LOOK - THE SWITCH IS ON, AND N...
...OW IT'S ON. AND N...
...OW IT'S ON. AND N...
...OW IT'S ON. AND-
Dude, don't mess with that, that's the open-thought switch. That's how we got "Unsorted Shit" done so quickly. Turn it off, man.
SORRY.
[Sig Note: That last part was fun as hell to make. Use your imagination on that "on/off switch" bit. :D]
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Day 41 - Bitches don't know 'bout my lack of patience
Saturday, July 7, 2007 6:54 PM
Sometimes I wish there was another place in Twin that sold manga (Hastings doesn't count since their "selection" is so small it's pathetic).
Well, not only was there no Cromartie High School at B&N, but I was also only able to find Naruto Volume 9. Volume 10 was nowhere to be seen, and Dr. Slump Volume 7 still remains to be an exotic find only seen by online shoppers and people who actually bother to order it through the store. Since the last few times I tried to order something in the store I was forced to show a physical copy of a previous volume just so that they wouldn't have to try to decipher my infamous "mumble voice", and since I couldn't check beforehand online to see if copies of the books actually existed (which plagues the Lunar Legend Tsukihime series, of which I'm STILL missing the fourth volume for that reason), I decided against ordering anything so that I wouldn't have to spell letter-by-letter what I want to order just so that they tell me that there aren't any copies or that the site isn't returning any results while they ask me if I spelled it correctly only to learn that I said M, not N - afterwards telling me that the book isn't even out yet even though it CLEARLY STATES "2006", NOT "2007". "Oh I'm sorry, I was too busy looking at the month and day to realize that THE BOOK WAS RELEASED ALMOST A FUCKING YEAR AGO - THANKS FOR POINTING OUT WHERE IT SAID THE YEAR OF THE BOOK'S RELEASE THAT WAS LITERALLY RIGHT NEXT TO THE FUCKING DATE." "You know what? This is what I'm looking for." *points to title* "Um, but you already have that book." >_< NO SHIT SHERLOCK - BUT THIS IS WHAT PEOPLE CALL A "MANGA SERIES" - MAYBE I WANTED, oh I don't know, A DIFFERENT VOLUME??
Seriously, Twin Falls needs a good "otaku-friendly" store for once. I miss Sam Goody (that space in the mall is now occupied by two, maybe three boxes - and it's completely open/empty). And the other half of Best Buy's anime selection. And Hastings needs to expand their manga collection to anything more than the puny "third of a body-wide shelf" selection that they have (my description is VERY generous BTW - I don't think Hastings ACTUALLY has that large of a selection). Dude, that's not a selection - that's leftovers.
If I seem like a grumpy bitch to you, then I only hope you were thoroughly entertained by this entry. Go ahead. Laugh. Watching other people get extremely pissed off makes for great comedy, doesn't it? Hell, just look at MTV/VH1's shows. Oh look - he's angry, she's angry, then he later shrugs it off while she starts crying - pure comedy GOLD. Bonus points if HE'S the one that starts crying while she shrugs it off, just because nothing seems to tickle our funny bone more than a crying male.
Ah, don't you just love the glorification of machismo?
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Okay, rant over - you can go home now.
[Sig Note: Holy fucking crapshit - how the hell did a MANGA update turn into a rant against the glorification of machismo? Personally, I think this entry shows the peak of my insanity during my "no internet zone" era.]
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Day 43 - The dawn of realization
Monday, July 9, 2007 12:12 PM
John arrives tomorrow.
1PM at the Boise airport to be exact.
I just learned this a few minutes ago.
That's right, the bitch-slapping hand of reality has officially struck. I was hoping he'd come soon, but DAYUM.
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The "bitch-slapping hand of reality" - use your imagination on that one. :P
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Damn, I just got out of bed so it's too early to think of anything more to write. -_-
Oh well.
[Sig Note: Thus begins the beginning of the end of the "no internet zone" era.]
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Day 44 - Uh, wow?
Tuesday, July 10, 2007 9:02 AM
Yesterday was Ani-Monday on Sci-Fi Channel, and apparently Macross Plus ended its run. Four hour-long episodes, and even though I missed the third episode, the final one was good. "Hella good."
That finale theme though - holy SHIT. Not since .Hack//SIGN's "A Stray Child" has a song gotten to me so.
Now, Macross Plus was good, and I'd love to see the third episode's events. However, that finale theme (naming it so even though the song was played in various times of the short series since I don't know the actual name of the song) is reason enough for me to switch from "MIGHT look for the DVD" to "will look for the DVD". Besides, the series is short enough to fit on one, prolly two discs - more than likely it'll be cheap (under 30 bucks). And cheap = good.
Also, even though I missed most of the first and all of the third episode of Noein (also on Ani-Monday), it looks promising. [Especially yesterday's episode, which left me with that warm feeling inside (no, I didn't piss my pants - you numbnut).] I'd have to see more though before I make a decision.
Then there's Tokko. Missed the third episode, but found the fourth ... interesting. Thirteen episodes, eh? If everything ends up awesome, the DVD purchase will be a VERY smart buy - apparently, the DVDs are trilingual (English, Japanese, and SPANISH). Basically, if I end up loving Tokko, my parents could end up seeing it as well. Let's just hope Tokko ends up "awesome" and not "meh" (which is likely).
Macross Plus is a sure buy though. Since I'm definitely not a mecha fan, I'm not gonna look at the other Macross stuff out there. Macross Plus was good though, so I'll make an exception to the Mecha "genre" or whatever I should call it.
Damn, that finale theme...
[Sig Note: First of all, that bracketed part was added a bit after I finished typing this entry. Second, the name of the song in question is "Voices" and is available right here. In order to satisfy the curious, "A Stray Child" can be found here.]
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Day 45 - The Yin and Yang of Daily Life
Wednesday, July 11, 2007 5:28 PM
Holy hell.
First of all, Best Buy has been reassured as a fairly bad place to buy anime. Hastings has improved on my view of it being a bad place to buy manga, but it still sucks horribly compared to B&N. Anime-wise, it's better than Best Buy but still not exactly "to par" with my expectations.
No Macross Plus sadly. But the first volume of Tokko and the first three volumes of Noein are at Hastings. And Best Buy has (surprise!) Pani Poni Dash! (first volume)
No Azumanga Daioh sadly (bitches). But Hastings has...
*drumroll*
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*drumroll stops*
TENCHI fucking MUYO! THIRTEEN EPISODES, INCLUDING THE 40+ MINUTE SEVENTH EPISODE!! GAH!!! *fanboy-gasm*
However, it's NINETY FUCKING BUCKS! GAH!!! *cries*
Hold on, lemme explain something. The 40-something minute seventh episode of Tenchi Muyo! named "Night Before the Carnival" is probably right there on my all-time favorite anime episodes, if not my all-time favorite. Considering the fact that I'm a Dragonball+Z+GT/Naruto/.Hack//SIGN fan, this is quite an accomplishment.
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Damn, hold on. Daft Punk is kicking ass right now.
I got two Daft Punk CDs at Hastings. "Discovery" was largely a disappointment, but it was worth it for Aerodynamic. "Human After All" on the other hand was pretty good. Got it for the full version of Technologic, kept playing it for The Prime Time Of Your Life and Television Rules The Nation.
Now I need Daft Punk's first album (forgot the name) - after that, my Daft-ness will be complete. Full version of Around The World, here I come! Woo! ^o^
"Television.
Rules the nation."
Kick ass.
[Sig Note: Wikipedia is your best friend. Since you're probably lost by now, now would be a good time to do some Wikipedia searches.]
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Day 46 - The end is near
Thursday, July 12, 2007 11:39 PM
That's right, FINALLY I see the end in sight. ^^
I saw today in the afternoon (while playing Soul Calibur II no less) something that can be considered "life-changing": a newly-purchased "Cable Gateway" from Best Buy.
That's right, I didn't know what the fuck it was either. But then I saw the text under it...
"Cable modem with built-in Wireless-G router."
Immediate reaction? "HOLY SHIT, a two-in-one??"
Needless to say, I was shocked something like that even existed. Then out of curiosity I saw the receipt.
"HOLY SHIT, $150??"
Needless to say, I was shocked. Then I remembered that had we gotten them separately as I had planned, we would've spent at most $10 more. Or at least I think so.
Anyway, TOMORROW (or at least that's what I think I heard) they're planning to activate the service and install the extra coaxial cable we need. 30 bucks a month for six months, then 45 bucks a month after. Much more expensive than I thought, but since it's the only Cable ISP in Twin we really don't have a choice.
OMG, BEST CASE SCENARIO, I can do a MASSIVE 'net splurge starting tomorrow night (with Smackdown! being the ... no, not even Smackdown! can stop it). WORST CASE SCENARIO, by Monday afternoon (thanks to the weekend). But if things go the way I think they will, in less than 24 HOURS I can post this ENTIRE text file in a Blogger post.
It'll probably end up being double (or even triple) the length of my longest blog post EVER (which I believe goes to either my final MySpace blog post, my Beatmania IIDX intro over at the House of Media, or one of my lengthy Type B posts at the Random Rantings blog), but quite frankly I stopped caring at around Day 30 or so.
Ah yes, Day 30. The day I found the perfect song to lose sanity to. I'll link to it somewhere at the end of the Day 30 post as a Sig Note or something.
[Sig Note: Or I could always link to it right here since I'm too lazy to scroll up and fix Day 30's Sig Note. And no, I don't know what the name of the song is, either (or who did it).]
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I received internet access on Day 47. "Tomorrow night"? More like "tomorrow afternoon" - which is when I got access. I'm almost finished updating most everything that needed updating, and I just need to post this text file on my Blogger blog. After that, the Type C flood stuff will need compiling before I post everything. Hopefully by tomorrow I can post it.
Currently 12:06 PM on Saturday, July 14, 2007. With that note, I bid this text file adieu.
- Sigmund Ignacio Nuka
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What's the pride and joy of the "no internet zone" accomplishments? This...
That's right - the "text flag" as a real flag. I fucking love Paint.
Anyway, my next post should be my Type C flood, so watch for that.
BTW, I'm currently using Firefox. Good holy HELL how I missed Firefox. I'll finish the Opera post later - for now, I'm continuing my 'net splurge. YAAAA!!!
- siggy
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